it is this week our Life Group turned into a Living Group
sunday we met @ Surya Utama
yesterday we met again to watch spiderman 3 @ TA
today we're gonna have a life group meeting @ robert's..
tomorrow we're gonna split up.. yola will have a meeting, i will lead a youth fellowhsip @ kedoya, and the rest of the gang will be having a bible study @ GKY Mangga besar.
afterwards we'll gonna round up for dinner somewhere (why is it always about food?) & probably spend the nite @ robert's..
saturday we'll also meet for the second day of bible study..
and the fact is.. i enjoyed it..
life group macam apa ini??
wekekekek....
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
monday nite Booo...link
played bowlink with sam n the uph'ers..
cathie, kalenk, nia, ariel, ucoks, san san, teteh, n jessica
we splitted into 2 lines, each lines with 5 bowlers..
ariel, kalenk and nia are good...
it'll make a great competitions.. next time that is hehe
its fun.. great nite, though i didn't win the game =)
hahaha.. its a wonderful experience...
ow yea.. forget to mention.. i slipped a few times hehe
slippery when not wet =D
before, the plan was to eat at konro karebosi..
sam n i missed the dinner coz the traffic was so high....
i didn't want to have dinner actually, so at first i think i didn't miss a thing
but as i said to a friend, i realize that i missed the atmosphere, the 'fourplay'
afterwards,..
we went to WGP to eat ropita
i was amazed with jessica's 'power' to eat. she didn't stop at all!!
huwaaa... she should join an eating contest..hehehe..
wel, the nite rise up and the moon was high..
a nite for yet another unexpected things...
another nite to wonder
i'm sniffing sumthin different..
what was on your mind cath?? haeaheahaha....
its like you're not concentrating on the bowling alley
and dont tell me its becoz you're hungry
i guess i sniff dat u sniff =D
thanks for askin us to join eniwei...
cathie, kalenk, nia, ariel, ucoks, san san, teteh, n jessica
we splitted into 2 lines, each lines with 5 bowlers..
ariel, kalenk and nia are good...
it'll make a great competitions.. next time that is hehe
its fun.. great nite, though i didn't win the game =)
hahaha.. its a wonderful experience...
ow yea.. forget to mention.. i slipped a few times hehe
slippery when not wet =D
before, the plan was to eat at konro karebosi..
sam n i missed the dinner coz the traffic was so high....
i didn't want to have dinner actually, so at first i think i didn't miss a thing
but as i said to a friend, i realize that i missed the atmosphere, the 'fourplay'
afterwards,..
we went to WGP to eat ropita
i was amazed with jessica's 'power' to eat. she didn't stop at all!!
huwaaa... she should join an eating contest..hehehe..
wel, the nite rise up and the moon was high..
a nite for yet another unexpected things...
another nite to wonder
i'm sniffing sumthin different..
what was on your mind cath?? haeaheahaha....
its like you're not concentrating on the bowling alley
and dont tell me its becoz you're hungry
i guess i sniff dat u sniff =D
thanks for askin us to join eniwei...
Monday, May 07, 2007
a week full of wonder
week 18
Monday
the feeling left from PYPL Kajadu still existed. the enthusiasm, the joy, and all tiredness comes together ... but most of all, i'm damn tired!
I didn't do anything in particular, just tryin' to rest my mind.. (and body as well)..
but the day was filled with happiness.
one of my friend was inaugurated as a pastor.
she is one of my partner in Life Group team, and she is a very damn good pastor...(one of my favorite pastors) hehehe.. wel I hope she will always be herself, not developed to be what her congregations wants.. to keep believing in her idealism and be blessings for people around her..
my best wishes for her in pursuing the will of God.. go for it Girl!
Tuesday
Life Group Meeting day.
Jeje was leading the meeting, and it went well.. we progress quite a bit and show improvement which we really needed.. as usual the meeting went till midnite ... benita joined in the team.. a good atmosphere we had. I hope the team and the materials will continue to develop from day to day, week to week, month to month and year to year. This is something really big what we're doin. I hope everybody realize it as well... all glory to you Lord
late at nite there was not many words..
just VIVA LIVERPOOL!!
a fantastic moment it was in a marvelous breath taking game, a high tension game which made me even hard to breathe and watch the game. but again, the lads perfectly beaten chelsea in a penalty kick drama which made them thru to the finals!! Awesomee dudee!!
Athens!! he're we come, we'll win it 6 times!!
YOU"LL NEVER WALK ALONE....
Wednesday
wel, not much.. just a milan game which they won superbly against manchester united
but it did make me smile that day... hehehehe.. no offense MU guys =D
Thursday
Alice's concert. the nite's theme was Simply Vivaldi.
This time she leads in a solo performance.. and its good (wel, i never know when there's a mistake or two.. so for me it was great hehe) great performance lizzie!
listening to this kind of concert just brings you to enjoy yourself..
especially when you hear and see a live performance harp.. wel, it bring old memory when i was still in bangkok and Ms. Jansen played the harp beautifully, though i didn't remember anything about the vibe..
it was an interesting nite.. i went with obet and we both enjoyed it. had a long chat at his apartment till midnite where i spend the nite.
Friday
i surveyed around Surya Utama for the 'amazing race' life group. I had everything i need and we'll be ready for the day. packed up and ready to go!
Saturday
the Jesus Dynasty seminar revealed the explanation needed...period.
met Yola with her new haircut... and some new gossips arise .. wel, its life man....just enjoy it eh.. =D
in the evening i lead gunsa teens fellowship. it took 3 hours but it was great, i believe the kids get something from the lord.. you're just great lord.. awesome dudee!!...
afterwards cathie, sam n i circle around and bumped ourselves to tamani cafe.. been a loooong time since the last time i ate there.. after dinner and some theory chat..hehe we went to ragusa.. the old fashined ice cream.. to bad it was about to close.. but we had the nite already, and its time to sleep.. zzz....
Sunday
Life Group Time!! and its amazing race episode!
can't say much.. but it was awesomee!! it went well and everybody was happy.. including the four of us.. obet, jeje, sam n me.. we learned a lot from it as well and i see sam was getting along very nicely here, and he enjoyed it very much.. good for you bro! and again.. glory to the man most high! after life group we went for sushi with yola.. the 5 of us...
had a good time and the next route was to yola's house.. we talked about 2 hours there
and we end the day with whatever we may think and feel..
but for me.. i'm definitely getting FATTER this week!
and you call that diet?? hauhauhaa....
but everything was a wonder.. its great and fulfilling..
just a simple thanks to you...
Monday
the feeling left from PYPL Kajadu still existed. the enthusiasm, the joy, and all tiredness comes together ... but most of all, i'm damn tired!
I didn't do anything in particular, just tryin' to rest my mind.. (and body as well)..
but the day was filled with happiness.
one of my friend was inaugurated as a pastor.
she is one of my partner in Life Group team, and she is a very damn good pastor...(one of my favorite pastors) hehehe.. wel I hope she will always be herself, not developed to be what her congregations wants.. to keep believing in her idealism and be blessings for people around her..
my best wishes for her in pursuing the will of God.. go for it Girl!
Tuesday
Life Group Meeting day.
Jeje was leading the meeting, and it went well.. we progress quite a bit and show improvement which we really needed.. as usual the meeting went till midnite ... benita joined in the team.. a good atmosphere we had. I hope the team and the materials will continue to develop from day to day, week to week, month to month and year to year. This is something really big what we're doin. I hope everybody realize it as well... all glory to you Lord
late at nite there was not many words..
just VIVA LIVERPOOL!!
a fantastic moment it was in a marvelous breath taking game, a high tension game which made me even hard to breathe and watch the game. but again, the lads perfectly beaten chelsea in a penalty kick drama which made them thru to the finals!! Awesomee dudee!!
Athens!! he're we come, we'll win it 6 times!!
YOU"LL NEVER WALK ALONE....
Wednesday
wel, not much.. just a milan game which they won superbly against manchester united
but it did make me smile that day... hehehehe.. no offense MU guys =D
Thursday
Alice's concert. the nite's theme was Simply Vivaldi.
This time she leads in a solo performance.. and its good (wel, i never know when there's a mistake or two.. so for me it was great hehe) great performance lizzie!
listening to this kind of concert just brings you to enjoy yourself..
especially when you hear and see a live performance harp.. wel, it bring old memory when i was still in bangkok and Ms. Jansen played the harp beautifully, though i didn't remember anything about the vibe..
it was an interesting nite.. i went with obet and we both enjoyed it. had a long chat at his apartment till midnite where i spend the nite.
Friday
i surveyed around Surya Utama for the 'amazing race' life group. I had everything i need and we'll be ready for the day. packed up and ready to go!
Saturday
the Jesus Dynasty seminar revealed the explanation needed...period.
met Yola with her new haircut... and some new gossips arise .. wel, its life man....just enjoy it eh.. =D
in the evening i lead gunsa teens fellowship. it took 3 hours but it was great, i believe the kids get something from the lord.. you're just great lord.. awesome dudee!!...
afterwards cathie, sam n i circle around and bumped ourselves to tamani cafe.. been a loooong time since the last time i ate there.. after dinner and some theory chat..hehe we went to ragusa.. the old fashined ice cream.. to bad it was about to close.. but we had the nite already, and its time to sleep.. zzz....
Sunday
Life Group Time!! and its amazing race episode!
can't say much.. but it was awesomee!! it went well and everybody was happy.. including the four of us.. obet, jeje, sam n me.. we learned a lot from it as well and i see sam was getting along very nicely here, and he enjoyed it very much.. good for you bro! and again.. glory to the man most high! after life group we went for sushi with yola.. the 5 of us...
had a good time and the next route was to yola's house.. we talked about 2 hours there
and we end the day with whatever we may think and feel..
but for me.. i'm definitely getting FATTER this week!
and you call that diet?? hauhauhaa....
but everything was a wonder.. its great and fulfilling..
just a simple thanks to you...
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
turning point
for everything there had to be a turning point...
a time when you can resolve things...
a decision to turn your life into a brighter day or a darker night
well maybe you don't understand any of it for a while
but when you make that decision, you realize...
it was somethin had to be done...
sometimes it can sound foolish, or maybe even crazy
sometimes it can also sound wise and mature
how ever it sounds.. you make the decision
and sometimes it need to take you to a place you'd never expect
make you stumble, dizzle, confused, burdened, and distracted
just to take you back to realize
it was the turning point
to resolve..
to make peace again with nature and life
another chapter had been closed, another chapter awaits..
a time when you can resolve things...
a decision to turn your life into a brighter day or a darker night
well maybe you don't understand any of it for a while
but when you make that decision, you realize...
it was somethin had to be done...
sometimes it can sound foolish, or maybe even crazy
sometimes it can also sound wise and mature
how ever it sounds.. you make the decision
and sometimes it need to take you to a place you'd never expect
make you stumble, dizzle, confused, burdened, and distracted
just to take you back to realize
it was the turning point
to resolve..
to make peace again with nature and life
another chapter had been closed, another chapter awaits..
Sunday, April 15, 2007
when ...
when there's a sudden change...
one must question what had happen? there might be 3 reasons..
a) a sudden busy life, b) a wind of change, or c) a mistake by ones man.
and in order to restore this madness, should this man bow down to his knees for forgivemess that he might not know? or just wait till things eventually came back to where it belong,..
what should a man do?
one may wonder....
one must question what had happen? there might be 3 reasons..
a) a sudden busy life, b) a wind of change, or c) a mistake by ones man.
and in order to restore this madness, should this man bow down to his knees for forgivemess that he might not know? or just wait till things eventually came back to where it belong,..
what should a man do?
one may wonder....
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
STONeS
The wOrld will proVide you with sToneS everyday...
What you build out of it, itS your Choice.
Wall, Road or a Bridge...
you may even choose to build noThing
at the end,
the world will know you by what you did with it..
What you build out of it, itS your Choice.
Wall, Road or a Bridge...
you may even choose to build noThing
at the end,
the world will know you by what you did with it..
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Freeky Freely Thinking
UPH lagee...
been a year since i that moment...
a great moment it was.. i still remembered everyone of them. Now we met in a tottaly different situation and in a different position as well. Many didn't know, i came not as a consultant or a profesional... but as a friend, and it put me in a better place to do what i can, to say what i should and to think freeky freely...
it took me in a whole lot better view to see everything actually... -the comittee and the participants as well- and to give inputs on everything.. but well, it turns out that it wasn't that easy
the event was great,.. the commitment from the comittee are astounding, they did everything they could.. they even barely sleep! the communications are a bit nasty though and the atmosphere was not so good, but they did it! and that's what count, wel, besides all the lesson they could learn
the participants.. well i guess they've stayed to loong in their comfort zone.. it made them a bit afraid to take risks and get out from it.. its so obvious though, with the environment they lived in and all other things surrounds them, What can i say? but fandy had it in one word.. "think deeper" ... cool words from the new senat chief!
I see the future of our generation sinking bit by bit...
if we don't rescue it, our genaration will fall down...
new perspective i learned, and definitely a new chance given by the almighty to take part in this world.. sounds like an old theme eh?
but hope is there, floating.. just had to work damn hard for it
in this place, for myself.. i learned about believing, surrendering, trust and being a leader itself.. and once again, i met our dear lord.. just in a glance, but enough to realize that He's always there....
been a year since i that moment...
a great moment it was.. i still remembered everyone of them. Now we met in a tottaly different situation and in a different position as well. Many didn't know, i came not as a consultant or a profesional... but as a friend, and it put me in a better place to do what i can, to say what i should and to think freeky freely...
it took me in a whole lot better view to see everything actually... -the comittee and the participants as well- and to give inputs on everything.. but well, it turns out that it wasn't that easy
the event was great,.. the commitment from the comittee are astounding, they did everything they could.. they even barely sleep! the communications are a bit nasty though and the atmosphere was not so good, but they did it! and that's what count, wel, besides all the lesson they could learn
the participants.. well i guess they've stayed to loong in their comfort zone.. it made them a bit afraid to take risks and get out from it.. its so obvious though, with the environment they lived in and all other things surrounds them, What can i say? but fandy had it in one word.. "think deeper" ... cool words from the new senat chief!
I see the future of our generation sinking bit by bit...
if we don't rescue it, our genaration will fall down...
new perspective i learned, and definitely a new chance given by the almighty to take part in this world.. sounds like an old theme eh?
but hope is there, floating.. just had to work damn hard for it
in this place, for myself.. i learned about believing, surrendering, trust and being a leader itself.. and once again, i met our dear lord.. just in a glance, but enough to realize that He's always there....
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Future
'we don't care where you have been, we care where you are going'
No matter what happened in d past doesn't matter anymore.
What you plan & hope does matter..
dat's why, You r never alone
No matter what happened in d past doesn't matter anymore.
What you plan & hope does matter..
dat's why, You r never alone
Turbulence
There are such turbulence in my brain circuit.. this thing i've had in my life for years. Such disturbance from time to time.. Over & over again, i've been troubled with these which can be soothing or annoying. Most of d times its annoying though.. No reasons, no answers. No explanation to this at all.. When will it stop? when will it end?
Only heaven knows..
Only heaven knows..
Thursday, February 15, 2007
reflect..
one of the sign about growth and maturity is the ability to reflect ones life to see the unseen
and to see beyond what is seen...
and to see beyond what is seen...
Saturday, February 10, 2007
BAN...JRIIIT
jakarta banjrit seminggu belakangan ini..
lucu juga sih... separo separo
gue jadi bisa liat orang orang tuh seperti apa
yang kaya sampe yang miskin, kadang gak ada bedanya
semuanya bukan ditentuin soal duit...
jah... kelakuan sama aja, gak ada beda
pemerintah ma rakyat tuding tudingan..
emang cirinya bangsa kita ya gini ini
menarik liat semuanya on location
ikut bantu jadi relawan di posko kaput
naek truk, drop makanan n evakuasi yg mo ngungsi ke gading
sampe tengah malem, 2 hari berturut turut...
sambil doa banjirnya surut n kering
sementara langit item n mendung terus...
tapi pas lagi evakuasi sih puaanaas mpe kebakar kulit
seru, cape n yang pasti bisa bersyukur juga dapet pengalaman seperti ini
bisa liat orang orang juga.. ketemu anak anak di jalan
ketemu anak anak K5 yang ikut bantuin.. bangga ma mereka yang pasti
gak cuma ngabur n ngungsi atau ngeluh, tapi langsung turun bantuin
thats what i call leaders!
lucu juga sih... separo separo
gue jadi bisa liat orang orang tuh seperti apa
yang kaya sampe yang miskin, kadang gak ada bedanya
semuanya bukan ditentuin soal duit...
jah... kelakuan sama aja, gak ada beda
pemerintah ma rakyat tuding tudingan..
emang cirinya bangsa kita ya gini ini
menarik liat semuanya on location
ikut bantu jadi relawan di posko kaput
naek truk, drop makanan n evakuasi yg mo ngungsi ke gading
sampe tengah malem, 2 hari berturut turut...
sambil doa banjirnya surut n kering
sementara langit item n mendung terus...
tapi pas lagi evakuasi sih puaanaas mpe kebakar kulit
seru, cape n yang pasti bisa bersyukur juga dapet pengalaman seperti ini
bisa liat orang orang juga.. ketemu anak anak di jalan
ketemu anak anak K5 yang ikut bantuin.. bangga ma mereka yang pasti
gak cuma ngabur n ngungsi atau ngeluh, tapi langsung turun bantuin
thats what i call leaders!
eastSIDEstory
the air smell so sweet...
there's a coffee shop, sometimes i like to buy a cup
there's a bus waiting every time to get aboard
wel, wouldn't it be a story?
its just another east side story
where everyone had a tail to tell
like hundreds people before me
there's something you hold on to, and something you let go
people say someone who really can't have is the one you really want most
think about it sometimes, whether its real or not
but whatever it is...
life goes on the same...
its just like an east side story
there's a coffee shop, sometimes i like to buy a cup
there's a bus waiting every time to get aboard
wel, wouldn't it be a story?
its just another east side story
where everyone had a tail to tell
like hundreds people before me
there's something you hold on to, and something you let go
people say someone who really can't have is the one you really want most
think about it sometimes, whether its real or not
but whatever it is...
life goes on the same...
its just like an east side story
Monday, January 15, 2007
live and let die
when you live,.. i guess you don't die
but for some people, living is dying
when you saw dead people.. would you say its a life?
we'll never know how life and death separates us
just be thankful that we're alive...
live and let die
but for some people, living is dying
when you saw dead people.. would you say its a life?
we'll never know how life and death separates us
just be thankful that we're alive...
live and let die
One Moment in Time
each day i live, i wanna be a day to give the best of me
i'm only one but not alone
my finest day is yet unknown...
i broke my heart for every gain
to taste the sweet, i face the pain
i rise and fall
this much remains
i want one moment in time
when i'm more than i thought i could be
when all of my dreams are far beat away
the answers are all up to me
give me one moment in time
when i'm racing with destiny
then in that one moment in time
i will feel eternity.. i will be free!
i lived to be the very best
i want it all, no time for less
i've laid a plan now lay the chance
here in my hands.......
i want one moment in time...
i'm only one but not alone
my finest day is yet unknown...
i broke my heart for every gain
to taste the sweet, i face the pain
i rise and fall
this much remains
i want one moment in time
when i'm more than i thought i could be
when all of my dreams are far beat away
the answers are all up to me
give me one moment in time
when i'm racing with destiny
then in that one moment in time
i will feel eternity.. i will be free!
i lived to be the very best
i want it all, no time for less
i've laid a plan now lay the chance
here in my hands.......
i want one moment in time...
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Anirah's Cross
Anirah is my grandma
she was a prefect grandma to all of us...
a kind and loving person, not to mention how humble she was...
i never saw her get mad or yelled at people....
even when grand pa yelled or scolded her....
not even ONCE!
She's already been gone for 5 years
but her memory lived inside all her sons and daugther, grand sons and grand daughter.. a remarkable grannie which you can't find anywhere in this world.
before she passed away, she requested her last wish,
and its to give all her grand sons and grand daughter a golden cross carved with her name and grandpa's name on it...
and a week ago at the tirta's family gathering... everyone of us received that golden cross..
just a simple and tiny cross but makes me how wonderful she was..
and we all give thanks to her...
i love you grandma, we all love you
even after you're gone.. or eventhough we didn't visit you much
but you know how much we all loved you..
you're the best grandma we eved had...
and your name will always be carved in our hearts
she was a prefect grandma to all of us...
a kind and loving person, not to mention how humble she was...
i never saw her get mad or yelled at people....
even when grand pa yelled or scolded her....
not even ONCE!
She's already been gone for 5 years
but her memory lived inside all her sons and daugther, grand sons and grand daughter.. a remarkable grannie which you can't find anywhere in this world.
before she passed away, she requested her last wish,
and its to give all her grand sons and grand daughter a golden cross carved with her name and grandpa's name on it...
and a week ago at the tirta's family gathering... everyone of us received that golden cross..
just a simple and tiny cross but makes me how wonderful she was..
and we all give thanks to her...
i love you grandma, we all love you
even after you're gone.. or eventhough we didn't visit you much
but you know how much we all loved you..
you're the best grandma we eved had...
and your name will always be carved in our hearts
BIG Tirta's family gatHerinG!
29 - 31 DECEMBER 2006
Serenity Villa, Lembank
its the BIGvenue for tirta's family
after a lot of hope during the past years, we finnaly gathered again at villa serenity, lembank
everyone gather round except b-benk, oci, ecu and the usual one.. the one and only ngkim nela..
sasa and kenneth was brought on the first day, just not enough to blend in but at least they showed up...
being one as a family is something you just don't find everyday lately..
it makes us remember all the good ol' days when we can still shared the POC excitment, one of the most remarkable venue in tirta's family tree
Time flies by and things changed .. from year to year, decade to decade
new familes created, new babies born and new members coming
but the family never changed.. tons of laughter gloomed in every corner of the place
everytime we gather, there's big sounds of happiness, yet sentimental and emotional
people counting more family members to come
its just wonderful to be in such condition
now we have the updated and most complete database, lots of new planning for the future ahead such calendar, t shirt, next gathering schedule, training programs and lots of excitement, spirit and dreams to come
follow ups coming up.. hope floats for a better big family
Serenity Villa, Lembank
its the BIGvenue for tirta's family
after a lot of hope during the past years, we finnaly gathered again at villa serenity, lembank
everyone gather round except b-benk, oci, ecu and the usual one.. the one and only ngkim nela..
sasa and kenneth was brought on the first day, just not enough to blend in but at least they showed up...
being one as a family is something you just don't find everyday lately..
it makes us remember all the good ol' days when we can still shared the POC excitment, one of the most remarkable venue in tirta's family tree
Time flies by and things changed .. from year to year, decade to decade
new familes created, new babies born and new members coming
but the family never changed.. tons of laughter gloomed in every corner of the place
everytime we gather, there's big sounds of happiness, yet sentimental and emotional
people counting more family members to come
its just wonderful to be in such condition
now we have the updated and most complete database, lots of new planning for the future ahead such calendar, t shirt, next gathering schedule, training programs and lots of excitement, spirit and dreams to come
follow ups coming up.. hope floats for a better big family
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
ShaZaM!!
ShaZaam!!!
i'm back on where i should've been...
after more than a month, finally i'm back on writings...
some new things had happened along the way.. the best moments and the bad as as well..
let this also be my news letter
in october tons of burdens, fun, anger, hope enthusiasm spin on and off, mix at the push your personal limit camp! it's always been like this every year
one of the most incredible moments i've ever run into...
my favourite camp from years to years
new excitement, new challenges, new atmosphere and definitely an improvement program. we have new programs, new printed workbook (yippiee!!), new teams and many more..
unfortunately not all the facilitators understood every meaning of it since they're new, but its good for them cause they also learn a lot from the program...
always in and out.. a balance i should say?
naa.. better next year, which i believe i'm gonna miss... a lot
i get to see the originality of the kids, the team and the development that had take place..
awesome!
new atmosphere @ school, the way they changed, some good and some others didn't. but that's how things went when you give all of it to all kids without any chance to select them.
after 4 waves of PYPL, my body began to exhaust.. but not the enthusiasm.. and thats what generates the energy level in my body, waive and massive,.....coz live in awaits!
the most exciting moment for me... a loong waited program since the kids are the ones i knew for more than 2 years. I've waited this chance a loong time, as some kids asked me whether i'm joining in or not.. its been up and down since theres no certainty whether i'm allowed to go or not.. few days before D day, i've finally granted the permission to go! i can't believe in goin live in again after years... since high school man! 14 years ago!! whoo haa!!
LIve IN
i know NOTHING before i go! nothing at all, and as know myself, it annoys me.. so i began searching here and there for information, not the best there is but at least i had a picture about it, alhough it was not a blue print of the event
i was placed at cuntel village, and as the guys said ngaduman was always better than cuntel, i told myself, "than lets have fun and make it good no matter what happens", and frankly .. thats what happened for almost everyone at cuntel village.
the village is located up to the south hill of salatiga city, around one hour from the city. about 134 families lived there, most of them earn their living by farming. it was cold up specially after the sun sets down around 6 o'clock
the situation when we were there are so pity, no rain in 7 month, and they can't farm.. barely no plants survived.. but they survived in hope.. cool aren' t they?
2 waves from physics and social class, both of them rocks in their own way..
lots of dynamic rythm.. mm.. the food was awesome! can't forget about it..
back @ home, a week after Live In i had an accident. and i broke my leg!
a first time experience ever, and somewhat it didn't terified me much, ah i guess my kinda mistake not taking it seriously... i can't move my feet much and i can't go anywhere for a month.
feeling lazy most of the time as i had not many things to do afterall..
and one day i discovered that i don't have anything to do.. and it scares me!! =D
nothing much happened besides my healing process..
uhm.. i broke up with inge after months of uncertainty. don't feel much about it and again made my friends wonder of the feeling i had.. this guy just broke up but he loooks fine... and i'm fine indeed...
so, a singular beacon has been led again...
everything until desember, SHAZAM!!
i'm back on where i should've been...
after more than a month, finally i'm back on writings...
some new things had happened along the way.. the best moments and the bad as as well..
let this also be my news letter
in october tons of burdens, fun, anger, hope enthusiasm spin on and off, mix at the push your personal limit camp! it's always been like this every year
one of the most incredible moments i've ever run into...
my favourite camp from years to years
new excitement, new challenges, new atmosphere and definitely an improvement program. we have new programs, new printed workbook (yippiee!!), new teams and many more..
unfortunately not all the facilitators understood every meaning of it since they're new, but its good for them cause they also learn a lot from the program...
always in and out.. a balance i should say?
naa.. better next year, which i believe i'm gonna miss... a lot
i get to see the originality of the kids, the team and the development that had take place..
awesome!
new atmosphere @ school, the way they changed, some good and some others didn't. but that's how things went when you give all of it to all kids without any chance to select them.
after 4 waves of PYPL, my body began to exhaust.. but not the enthusiasm.. and thats what generates the energy level in my body, waive and massive,.....coz live in awaits!
the most exciting moment for me... a loong waited program since the kids are the ones i knew for more than 2 years. I've waited this chance a loong time, as some kids asked me whether i'm joining in or not.. its been up and down since theres no certainty whether i'm allowed to go or not.. few days before D day, i've finally granted the permission to go! i can't believe in goin live in again after years... since high school man! 14 years ago!! whoo haa!!
LIve IN
i know NOTHING before i go! nothing at all, and as know myself, it annoys me.. so i began searching here and there for information, not the best there is but at least i had a picture about it, alhough it was not a blue print of the event
i was placed at cuntel village, and as the guys said ngaduman was always better than cuntel, i told myself, "than lets have fun and make it good no matter what happens", and frankly .. thats what happened for almost everyone at cuntel village.
the village is located up to the south hill of salatiga city, around one hour from the city. about 134 families lived there, most of them earn their living by farming. it was cold up specially after the sun sets down around 6 o'clock
the situation when we were there are so pity, no rain in 7 month, and they can't farm.. barely no plants survived.. but they survived in hope.. cool aren' t they?
2 waves from physics and social class, both of them rocks in their own way..
lots of dynamic rythm.. mm.. the food was awesome! can't forget about it..
back @ home, a week after Live In i had an accident. and i broke my leg!
a first time experience ever, and somewhat it didn't terified me much, ah i guess my kinda mistake not taking it seriously... i can't move my feet much and i can't go anywhere for a month.
feeling lazy most of the time as i had not many things to do afterall..
and one day i discovered that i don't have anything to do.. and it scares me!! =D
nothing much happened besides my healing process..
uhm.. i broke up with inge after months of uncertainty. don't feel much about it and again made my friends wonder of the feeling i had.. this guy just broke up but he loooks fine... and i'm fine indeed...
so, a singular beacon has been led again...
everything until desember, SHAZAM!!
Monday, October 30, 2006
A SURE WAY TO A HAPPY DAY
Happiness is something we create in our mind
It’s not something you search for and so seldom find
It’s just waking up and beginning the day
By counting our blessings and kneeling to pray
It’s giving up thoughts that breed discontent and
accepting what comes as a gift heaven sent
It’s giving up wishing for things we have not
and making the best of whatever we’ve got
It’s knowing that life is determined for us,
And pursuing our tasks without fret, fume or fuss
For it’s by completing what GOD gives us to do
That we find real contentment and happiness too
It’s not something you search for and so seldom find
It’s just waking up and beginning the day
By counting our blessings and kneeling to pray
It’s giving up thoughts that breed discontent and
accepting what comes as a gift heaven sent
It’s giving up wishing for things we have not
and making the best of whatever we’ve got
It’s knowing that life is determined for us,
And pursuing our tasks without fret, fume or fuss
For it’s by completing what GOD gives us to do
That we find real contentment and happiness too
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
FREEZING TARUTUNG! - day four
Day 4
Wake up, bread & breakfast, siap2 melalui jln yg panjang ke tarutung.. (tararutung - pada gosong, klo kt org sunda hehehe)..4 hours trip. Stopped by di Siborrong Borrong (knp ya di tanah bataq ini bnyk si-nya?) mkn a different style of piggy.. Piggy all d way niih!! Fatso me.
Jalan ke salib kasih, the cross of love. Daerah wisata rohani di tarutung.. It is a hill of forests, & on top of it (wel, almost top sih) there's a big cross. A VERY big one! Huge & enormous! tp kudu jln kaki naek ke atas bukit dulu, lumayan tinggi & jauh.. Ada rumah2 doa & ada tmp ibadah outdoor gt.. Bagus juga.. Tp sekali lg pemandangan Tarutung itu bener2 TOB! Sebuah kota dikelilingi bukit2,. Kyk di lembah gt... Cold & freezing, yet marvelous! Ketemuan ma John & Tiar temennya yosi, seneng bgt mrk, kawan karib dr kampus.. Trus ke rumahnya john yg sgt sederhana.. A small wooden house in the hill.. Just like in country movies, but NOT a cowboy movie :p. Sometimes I wonder how would it be if I live there..
I ride john's bike to his house from the love cross.. Freezing!!..it was really freezing!! I'm a short-pants rider in the wild freezing air
Kita cabut ke siantar jam 5 sore, 5-6 hours trip.. Beli ombus2 di jln pulang, smsan ma tmn br yg mo ujian (wiiihiiw asiknya biqn sirq org hehehe :D) & janjian doa brg anaq2 Life Group. Nyampe di siantar, jlnnya gedee, kyk jln sudirman di bandung.. Cuacanya jg ok, dingin sepoi2 gitu, small city, n guess what.. Bersiih boow!! Cm balikpapan yg bs nandingin bersihnya siantar. Lgsglaah kita CARI DUREEN! Hehehe.. to b fair, agaq2 mengecewakan sih durennya,sedikit, secuil mungil ukurannya but who cares! This is duren man!!
Sikatlah yg bs diembat hehehe :p (da kyk org Batax gw ya hehehe) & bersyukurlah kami padaNya, asli batak kali aku inilah! Bah :D
Nyampe wisma yg kasurnya kyk papan (untung da biasa hehehe) lngsung bless..
& rebutan colokan dulu sebelumnya whihi..
Wake up, bread & breakfast, siap2 melalui jln yg panjang ke tarutung.. (tararutung - pada gosong, klo kt org sunda hehehe)..4 hours trip. Stopped by di Siborrong Borrong (knp ya di tanah bataq ini bnyk si-nya?) mkn a different style of piggy.. Piggy all d way niih!! Fatso me.
Jalan ke salib kasih, the cross of love. Daerah wisata rohani di tarutung.. It is a hill of forests, & on top of it (wel, almost top sih) there's a big cross. A VERY big one! Huge & enormous! tp kudu jln kaki naek ke atas bukit dulu, lumayan tinggi & jauh.. Ada rumah2 doa & ada tmp ibadah outdoor gt.. Bagus juga.. Tp sekali lg pemandangan Tarutung itu bener2 TOB! Sebuah kota dikelilingi bukit2,. Kyk di lembah gt... Cold & freezing, yet marvelous! Ketemuan ma John & Tiar temennya yosi, seneng bgt mrk, kawan karib dr kampus.. Trus ke rumahnya john yg sgt sederhana.. A small wooden house in the hill.. Just like in country movies, but NOT a cowboy movie :p. Sometimes I wonder how would it be if I live there..
I ride john's bike to his house from the love cross.. Freezing!!..it was really freezing!! I'm a short-pants rider in the wild freezing air
Kita cabut ke siantar jam 5 sore, 5-6 hours trip.. Beli ombus2 di jln pulang, smsan ma tmn br yg mo ujian (wiiihiiw asiknya biqn sirq org hehehe :D) & janjian doa brg anaq2 Life Group. Nyampe di siantar, jlnnya gedee, kyk jln sudirman di bandung.. Cuacanya jg ok, dingin sepoi2 gitu, small city, n guess what.. Bersiih boow!! Cm balikpapan yg bs nandingin bersihnya siantar. Lgsglaah kita CARI DUREEN! Hehehe.. to b fair, agaq2 mengecewakan sih durennya,sedikit, secuil mungil ukurannya but who cares! This is duren man!!
Sikatlah yg bs diembat hehehe :p (da kyk org Batax gw ya hehehe) & bersyukurlah kami padaNya, asli batak kali aku inilah! Bah :D
Nyampe wisma yg kasurnya kyk papan (untung da biasa hehehe) lngsung bless..
& rebutan colokan dulu sebelumnya whihi..
32 YEARS OF MARRIAGE - day three
22.15 PM
this is d day dat we want to celebrate.. We hugged each other & we prayed together. Da gt keluar nikmatin the morning view.. Wuuaa.. Kereen bgt Boow! Indah d... Klo stay disini bbrp hr buat istirahat jg okay.. pemandangannya bagus bgt, palagi klo da matahari..coz selama disini blon ketemu matahari.... Hehe langsunglaah foto2, capturing the moment & scenery..the lake is Very beautiful, the hills are georgeous, standing tall & firm, yet lovely.. Everywhere you look, there are hills & water..
makam raja sidabutar di tomok jadi inceran berikut. tmptnya c bener2 ga ada yg bisa diliyat. Daerah ini gak bisa jual apa2... Cuma numpang alam aja, what a waste!
da diceritain latar blkngnya, kita liyat rumah tradisionalnya batak ampe ke dlm2 rumahnya.. Ini doang yg worth disitu. Eeh, da gitu ujan turun dgn hepinya, mungkin da tau kita gaq ada yg bawa payung hehehe ya ujan ujananlaaa kita ngejar jam brkt feri. Untung deket bgt dr situ.
So,@ ferry i began to sigh.. Thinking that i would miss a lot of beauty.. I saw the clouds & the rain covering everything in front of my eyes..
Awan nutupin pemandangan yg indah, mataharipun enggan menampakkan wajahnya, the clouds covering a beautiful landscape seakan akan bilang sama matahari "kali ini gw giliran gw yg show off". Well, klo mo jujur sih, dikasi awan mendung gt juga ttp bagus koq..awan awan yg nutupin sebagian gunung & pemandangan parapat yg diselimuti awan juga bagus bgt, kecuali buat camera. jd emg giliran awan yg show off.. Tp Di kejauhan matahari udah ngintip..
Beautiful will always be beautiful, no matter what may come.. The show off is over, dan walopun matahari gaq nongol (dan seharian itu gaq nongol seharian), I can see all d view. It's still magnificent! I climb up the ferry's ladder to see the view.. Never want to go down.. I can see all around in d middle of d boat without blinking.. God is soo awsome! All this beauty He created didn't miss a spot!
We docked @ parapat n we’ll, not much to tell.. Not much to see.. cuma batu gantung yg trnyta cuma gt aja.. Tetep pemandangannya yg tiada tara.. Liat monyet monyet cilik berkeliaran di pinggir jalan.. Eh beneran monyet loo.. :D. Till night there's nothing special to tell, except that we share old memories.. Remembering & reflecting the first 8 wonder years as a familly... We talked & laugh.. Till we all fall asleep
this is d day dat we want to celebrate.. We hugged each other & we prayed together. Da gt keluar nikmatin the morning view.. Wuuaa.. Kereen bgt Boow! Indah d... Klo stay disini bbrp hr buat istirahat jg okay.. pemandangannya bagus bgt, palagi klo da matahari..coz selama disini blon ketemu matahari.... Hehe langsunglaah foto2, capturing the moment & scenery..the lake is Very beautiful, the hills are georgeous, standing tall & firm, yet lovely.. Everywhere you look, there are hills & water..
makam raja sidabutar di tomok jadi inceran berikut. tmptnya c bener2 ga ada yg bisa diliyat. Daerah ini gak bisa jual apa2... Cuma numpang alam aja, what a waste!
da diceritain latar blkngnya, kita liyat rumah tradisionalnya batak ampe ke dlm2 rumahnya.. Ini doang yg worth disitu. Eeh, da gitu ujan turun dgn hepinya, mungkin da tau kita gaq ada yg bawa payung hehehe ya ujan ujananlaaa kita ngejar jam brkt feri. Untung deket bgt dr situ.
So,@ ferry i began to sigh.. Thinking that i would miss a lot of beauty.. I saw the clouds & the rain covering everything in front of my eyes..
Awan nutupin pemandangan yg indah, mataharipun enggan menampakkan wajahnya, the clouds covering a beautiful landscape seakan akan bilang sama matahari "kali ini gw giliran gw yg show off". Well, klo mo jujur sih, dikasi awan mendung gt juga ttp bagus koq..awan awan yg nutupin sebagian gunung & pemandangan parapat yg diselimuti awan juga bagus bgt, kecuali buat camera. jd emg giliran awan yg show off.. Tp Di kejauhan matahari udah ngintip..
Beautiful will always be beautiful, no matter what may come.. The show off is over, dan walopun matahari gaq nongol (dan seharian itu gaq nongol seharian), I can see all d view. It's still magnificent! I climb up the ferry's ladder to see the view.. Never want to go down.. I can see all around in d middle of d boat without blinking.. God is soo awsome! All this beauty He created didn't miss a spot!
We docked @ parapat n we’ll, not much to tell.. Not much to see.. cuma batu gantung yg trnyta cuma gt aja.. Tetep pemandangannya yg tiada tara.. Liat monyet monyet cilik berkeliaran di pinggir jalan.. Eh beneran monyet loo.. :D. Till night there's nothing special to tell, except that we share old memories.. Remembering & reflecting the first 8 wonder years as a familly... We talked & laugh.. Till we all fall asleep
THE TELE! - day two
11.25 pm, 22 sept 06
Second day...
We depart from the hostel @ 10.. Round around ke pasar bunga & buah.. Semuanya bgs2.. Bunganya jg indah2.. Kyk di puncak bgt deey.. Buahnya jg murah2.. Borong jeruk, terong belanda, & mangga mungil tp manis.. Muter bentar bwat mkn pecel! Trus ke tmn hutan rakyat bukit barisan, ktmu bnyk monyet, yg lucu, salah satu msk ke mobil sebelah & ngembat permen permen,.. Yg laen pd ikut turun dr po'on.. Rameing d ma monyet.. Didn't touch them..
Take some pic, then off we go..
Jlnnya gaq lebar tp jauuh & luruus lurus.. We stopped by to a very interesting place called taman wisata iman. Disitu ada replika & patung2 religius dr 5 agama, & since this is a christian area, you could find church everywhere.. Gkpi, hkbp mostly..di area seluas 13 ha itu ada patung2 peristiwa dr jmn abraham ke musa, trus jln salib yesus sampe disalib & bangkit.. Yg laen kecil2 :p...
From Karo to Toba
We stopped by again @ tb simatupang & l manik statue.. A good view around the forest. Take some pictures & realized that i'm fatsoo now. Need to shape up my body again hahaha...
The last stop was magnificent! its called tele hills & mountains.. You could see lake toba from a distance & pemandangan bukitnya man!! Ga nahaan!! Sayang bgt batere camnya da tepar.. Jlnnya beneran nyusur pegunungan, & jlnnya kecil bgt, blm pula bnyk batu yg jatoh dr atas pd mejeng di tengah jalan.. Wuu... Never saw such scenery in front of my eyes, biasanya cm liyad di tv.. This is not a trip, this is an ADVENTURE!! aweesoomee!
A magic wonder that God had created.
Sayang blon dibuat maksimal promosinya..pdhl amat sangat menjanjikan. The people are too traditional.. Not educated enough to see how they can promote this place. Indonesia tu kaya raya, tp most of the ctizen tu org2 miskin.. Well, sebenernya kita gaq pernah merdeka dr penjajahan.. Sigh..
what a waste of beat. Penduduknya masi tradisional bgt.. The traditional is good, but the way of thinkingnyaa itu looow.. antara sayang, sebel & kesel... sigh.. merananya negeriku
So we arrived @ samosir yg sepiii bgt jam 5.30 pm.. Di jln cm liyat rumah2 traditional & kuburan yg jauu lbi mewah dr rumah itu sendiri..
Cr hotel carolina which is good & very cheap, good view too, cm da mlm..
Satu persatu tidur.. I stay awake the last..
Wondeful scenery.. Amazing view, lots to think, a great give thanks in the end..
Second day...
We depart from the hostel @ 10.. Round around ke pasar bunga & buah.. Semuanya bgs2.. Bunganya jg indah2.. Kyk di puncak bgt deey.. Buahnya jg murah2.. Borong jeruk, terong belanda, & mangga mungil tp manis.. Muter bentar bwat mkn pecel! Trus ke tmn hutan rakyat bukit barisan, ktmu bnyk monyet, yg lucu, salah satu msk ke mobil sebelah & ngembat permen permen,.. Yg laen pd ikut turun dr po'on.. Rameing d ma monyet.. Didn't touch them..
Take some pic, then off we go..
Jlnnya gaq lebar tp jauuh & luruus lurus.. We stopped by to a very interesting place called taman wisata iman. Disitu ada replika & patung2 religius dr 5 agama, & since this is a christian area, you could find church everywhere.. Gkpi, hkbp mostly..di area seluas 13 ha itu ada patung2 peristiwa dr jmn abraham ke musa, trus jln salib yesus sampe disalib & bangkit.. Yg laen kecil2 :p...
From Karo to Toba
We stopped by again @ tb simatupang & l manik statue.. A good view around the forest. Take some pictures & realized that i'm fatsoo now. Need to shape up my body again hahaha...
The last stop was magnificent! its called tele hills & mountains.. You could see lake toba from a distance & pemandangan bukitnya man!! Ga nahaan!! Sayang bgt batere camnya da tepar.. Jlnnya beneran nyusur pegunungan, & jlnnya kecil bgt, blm pula bnyk batu yg jatoh dr atas pd mejeng di tengah jalan.. Wuu... Never saw such scenery in front of my eyes, biasanya cm liyad di tv.. This is not a trip, this is an ADVENTURE!! aweesoomee!
A magic wonder that God had created.
Sayang blon dibuat maksimal promosinya..pdhl amat sangat menjanjikan. The people are too traditional.. Not educated enough to see how they can promote this place. Indonesia tu kaya raya, tp most of the ctizen tu org2 miskin.. Well, sebenernya kita gaq pernah merdeka dr penjajahan.. Sigh..
what a waste of beat. Penduduknya masi tradisional bgt.. The traditional is good, but the way of thinkingnyaa itu looow.. antara sayang, sebel & kesel... sigh.. merananya negeriku
So we arrived @ samosir yg sepiii bgt jam 5.30 pm.. Di jln cm liyat rumah2 traditional & kuburan yg jauu lbi mewah dr rumah itu sendiri..
Cr hotel carolina which is good & very cheap, good view too, cm da mlm..
Satu persatu tidur.. I stay awake the last..
Wondeful scenery.. Amazing view, lots to think, a great give thanks in the end..
MEDAN'S JOURNEY - day one
21 sept 06, 13.42 WIB
gw menjejakkan kaki pertama kalinya di bandar udara polonia, medan.
kebiasaan dan pikiran bawah sadar sering membuat kita melakukan sesuatu berdasarkan pola yg udah tersimpan di otak.. Sama seperti tadi waktu gw nyampe di cengkareng.. Lngsg cek in, & setelah 5 mnt ngantri, I realized something was wrong.. I was lining on d way to batam!! Mmm.. How mind can take us that far. Selama ini klo ngantri, mikir bkl ketemu bokap nyokap tujuannya selalu ke batam sampe gw nyadar, koq flight numbernya beda yah sama flight number gw.. Sampe akhirnya gw liyad,.. God, tujuannya ke batam! Quickly I ask for the right line, & everything went well.. N well, airasia ngaret spt biasa..
POKOKNYAA GW DAH NYAMPE MEDAN! hehehe
Skrg gw lg nunggu bonyok & ko2 gw di bndara krn flight mrk jg di delay yg malah ga jls jam brp brktnya... I'm Waiting with no confirmation, sambil liatin org di sekitar yg berinteraksi penuh dinamika.
There they are.. Estimated time is 3.00 PM
Thank god there's technology called PDA so i can write & browse. But i'm starving to death, soo hungry :D
We rent a car with the driver, a relative from a relative.. So, our trip will be accompanied by a green krista.
Brastagi!
It is our first destination, directly from medan.. We stopped by only to buy bika ambon. There's this road filled with bika ambon store, all d way..
On route, we stopped by several times. First, is to buy Grilled PORK! lapo medan coy! It's delicious & cheap! Yosi took some pictures of the maids there which r very happy with it! Buungkuuuss!!
Second stop is to buy star fruit & jambu.. Again, it was very cheap & we had a chat with a small kids who sell the fruits..
Third, Durian time!! We only bought 3 durians & it was enough, coz certainly it was not gonna be the last time we eat durian here.. Hehehe..
Fourth, i'm really tired, mom bought some toasted corn. Can't hardly eat anymore... didn't finish it as well.
@ 7 we arrived @ brastagi, ato berastagi... Tmpnya kyk puncak abees bow, ato cipanas laa..dingiin, berkabut, Oke juga c.. Kita puter2 btr nyari tmp nginep.. Dpt yg murah meriah & bersih..
Trus trnyata qta yg ngakunya da kenyang
ttp aja ngeganyang tu piggy panggang ... Nasinya jg seabrek abrek!!
First day was impressive. Bnyk hal br yg bisa diliyad & dinikmati.. Thank God for it..we close the day with give thanks to d lord..
gw menjejakkan kaki pertama kalinya di bandar udara polonia, medan.
kebiasaan dan pikiran bawah sadar sering membuat kita melakukan sesuatu berdasarkan pola yg udah tersimpan di otak.. Sama seperti tadi waktu gw nyampe di cengkareng.. Lngsg cek in, & setelah 5 mnt ngantri, I realized something was wrong.. I was lining on d way to batam!! Mmm.. How mind can take us that far. Selama ini klo ngantri, mikir bkl ketemu bokap nyokap tujuannya selalu ke batam sampe gw nyadar, koq flight numbernya beda yah sama flight number gw.. Sampe akhirnya gw liyad,.. God, tujuannya ke batam! Quickly I ask for the right line, & everything went well.. N well, airasia ngaret spt biasa..
POKOKNYAA GW DAH NYAMPE MEDAN! hehehe
Skrg gw lg nunggu bonyok & ko2 gw di bndara krn flight mrk jg di delay yg malah ga jls jam brp brktnya... I'm Waiting with no confirmation, sambil liatin org di sekitar yg berinteraksi penuh dinamika.
There they are.. Estimated time is 3.00 PM
Thank god there's technology called PDA so i can write & browse. But i'm starving to death, soo hungry :D
We rent a car with the driver, a relative from a relative.. So, our trip will be accompanied by a green krista.
Brastagi!
It is our first destination, directly from medan.. We stopped by only to buy bika ambon. There's this road filled with bika ambon store, all d way..
On route, we stopped by several times. First, is to buy Grilled PORK! lapo medan coy! It's delicious & cheap! Yosi took some pictures of the maids there which r very happy with it! Buungkuuuss!!
Second stop is to buy star fruit & jambu.. Again, it was very cheap & we had a chat with a small kids who sell the fruits..
Third, Durian time!! We only bought 3 durians & it was enough, coz certainly it was not gonna be the last time we eat durian here.. Hehehe..
Fourth, i'm really tired, mom bought some toasted corn. Can't hardly eat anymore... didn't finish it as well.
@ 7 we arrived @ brastagi, ato berastagi... Tmpnya kyk puncak abees bow, ato cipanas laa..dingiin, berkabut, Oke juga c.. Kita puter2 btr nyari tmp nginep.. Dpt yg murah meriah & bersih..
Trus trnyata qta yg ngakunya da kenyang
ttp aja ngeganyang tu piggy panggang ... Nasinya jg seabrek abrek!!
First day was impressive. Bnyk hal br yg bisa diliyad & dinikmati.. Thank God for it..we close the day with give thanks to d lord..
Saturday, September 09, 2006
end of the day
i'm just sad this nite...
a good day at the start...somehow plans changed..
i should've felt better than this.. but i don't
i know it'll go away as fast as i can think of..
but anyhow i can only say thanks to the lord above..
so, thanks...
a good day at the start...somehow plans changed..
i should've felt better than this.. but i don't
i know it'll go away as fast as i can think of..
but anyhow i can only say thanks to the lord above..
so, thanks...
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
bye, good friend
today i lost a very nice friend in the office...
she was sacked (a crude way to say) because of reasons that none of them are her fault, i think... its just the condition that had to be that way...
i'm speechless... stranded by what just happen this afternoon..
no farewell.. no nothing, just a simple tear
i'm sad.. hopeless with nothing i can do....
i watch her walk by leaving steps and memories away from the office...
bye ly, very nice to know you, its been a pleasure working with you...
success for you along the way....
and thanks for being such a good friend...
i'm gonna miss you that's for sure
i believe the sun still shines with you...
she was sacked (a crude way to say) because of reasons that none of them are her fault, i think... its just the condition that had to be that way...
i'm speechless... stranded by what just happen this afternoon..
no farewell.. no nothing, just a simple tear
i'm sad.. hopeless with nothing i can do....
i watch her walk by leaving steps and memories away from the office...
bye ly, very nice to know you, its been a pleasure working with you...
success for you along the way....
and thanks for being such a good friend...
i'm gonna miss you that's for sure
i believe the sun still shines with you...
Thursday, August 17, 2006
neue season
its the new season at school!!...
new kids, new principal,
new atmosphere, new added team, new outfit =D
lots of challenge difinitely... new modified curriculum....
more things to be done..
for me.. besides all that enthusiasm, i really miss the kids i used to teach
in the first 2 weeks there are lots of kids asking me whether i teach them again or not..
one of them even ask permission to go to the rest room to me..
a bit sad.. like a little needle stabbed to my heart... =D
wel,
its hard to change your focus to a very new surroundings.. this new class i mean
i still hang out with them at break time or after school hour..
better then ever i might say...
we played futsal again (and u know what, other kids knew that too!), had dinner @ seafood ayu with the boyz.. hang out with them.. life group again...
ah...
have new kids to pay attention to....
and i have only one year to do so...
things will be different i guess...
better or worse,
above all i just want Your name to be glorified
new kids, new principal,
new atmosphere, new added team, new outfit =D
lots of challenge difinitely... new modified curriculum....
more things to be done..
for me.. besides all that enthusiasm, i really miss the kids i used to teach
in the first 2 weeks there are lots of kids asking me whether i teach them again or not..
one of them even ask permission to go to the rest room to me..
a bit sad.. like a little needle stabbed to my heart... =D
wel,
its hard to change your focus to a very new surroundings.. this new class i mean
i still hang out with them at break time or after school hour..
better then ever i might say...
we played futsal again (and u know what, other kids knew that too!), had dinner @ seafood ayu with the boyz.. hang out with them.. life group again...
ah...
have new kids to pay attention to....
and i have only one year to do so...
things will be different i guess...
better or worse,
above all i just want Your name to be glorified
would you believe me?
if i said that i loved you, but i didn't show it much..
or maybe almost never....
would you believe me?
if i said that i care about you
without showing any signs of caring....
would you believe me?
if i said that i missed you..
yet i don't know how to comunicate with you..
would you believe me?
would you still believe me if didn't do anything for you or even say anything to you?
in all that matter... with everything that i never did, which maybe i should
i just wanna say ...
'i will love you forever, no matter what i do or what you do "
to
mom and dad.....
you're not perfect, but you're a true blessing for me
or maybe almost never....
would you believe me?
if i said that i care about you
without showing any signs of caring....
would you believe me?
if i said that i missed you..
yet i don't know how to comunicate with you..
would you believe me?
would you still believe me if didn't do anything for you or even say anything to you?
in all that matter... with everything that i never did, which maybe i should
i just wanna say ...
'i will love you forever, no matter what i do or what you do "
to
mom and dad.....
you're not perfect, but you're a true blessing for me
Friday, August 04, 2006
translator
a first time experience as a translator
hard... ecxausting...
really...
you have to listen carefully, listen fast & think fast to translate it...
in the other hand.. you have to understand the material as well..
i maen.. i'm not just being a translator.. i'm being a participant as well...
so i need the metarial, but in the other hand i have to try to translate it...
but thank God.. it went quite well with some mistakes here and there... hehehehe
gladly over...
hard... ecxausting...
really...
you have to listen carefully, listen fast & think fast to translate it...
in the other hand.. you have to understand the material as well..
i maen.. i'm not just being a translator.. i'm being a participant as well...
so i need the metarial, but in the other hand i have to try to translate it...
but thank God.. it went quite well with some mistakes here and there... hehehehe
gladly over...
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Today
today, you decided to resign...
today, you shown who you are...
today, you show your integrity, humility, and responsibility
really respect your decision though it might not what we all hope
you've shown spirit, nationalism, patriotism, dedication, optimism and HOPE
all the best for you in your journey of life
dedicated to Juergen Klinsmann, a noble man
Rick Warren
Today's the day that people have waited for a while at church.
Rick Warren is preaching on a joint sunday service at Shangrila ballroom.
Lots of crowd at the venue. Our life group split to 8.30 & 10.30.. Robert was there too.. I arrived on time, met rob but split seat.. Rick has a throat problems so he was replaced by one of his pastor team. But the preaching was good. Met k' haskar too..been a loong time since we've met.. Met ewa as well..
No disappointment at all..
Rick Warren is preaching on a joint sunday service at Shangrila ballroom.
Lots of crowd at the venue. Our life group split to 8.30 & 10.30.. Robert was there too.. I arrived on time, met rob but split seat.. Rick has a throat problems so he was replaced by one of his pastor team. But the preaching was good. Met k' haskar too..been a loong time since we've met.. Met ewa as well..
No disappointment at all..
Farewell Heroes
Everything has come to an end,
It hurts not to be number one when retirement is in front of the eye!
And Maybe this is the end for you in the World Cups
But you are all heroes that will shine & last in memories
Oliver Kahn -
you are always number one, even when you're not in the field
Jens Lehmann -
Superb work through out the year. You've proven that Klinsmann is not wrong to pick you as number 1
Jens Nowotny -
You're always a figure to follow for the young German defence
Bernd Schneider -
You never stop fighting till the end. A true German spirit
Oliver Neuville -
humble yet hard worker forward. Calm & Cool figure upfront.. Never been selfish. You will remain in the hearts of all germans
Farewell Heroes! You've shown what a hero is really all about
after the final, 10 July 2006
Danke
a spirit never dies when hearts joined together
Though disappointment & sadness grasp at soul
You never stop fighting till d end
At the end, smile & laughter are all is seen
Joyful & gladness appeared
You have shown & gave the best you have..
No matter where where it ends
It'll stay in one's heart
We will never forget this moment
Thank you, for the hope you've showed us.. For hope is what makes us live
Thank you for not giving up!
danke!
dedicated to Team germany 2006
3rd winner of the 2006 World Cup
Oliver Khan, Jens Lehmann, Timo Hildebrand
Marcell Jansen, Arne Friedrich, Phillip Lahm, Christoph Metzelder, Per Mertsacker, Robert Huth, Jens Nowotny
David Odonkor, Thorsten Frings, Michael Ballack, Bernd Schneider, Tim Borowski, Sebastian Kehl, Bastian Sweinsteiger, Thomas Hitzlperger
Gerald Asamoah, Mike Hanke, Oliver Neuville, Lucas Podolski, Miroslav Klose
Oliver Bierhoff, Andreas Keopke, Joachim Leow, & most of all
JUERGEN KLINSMANN!
after the final, 10th July 2006
Though disappointment & sadness grasp at soul
You never stop fighting till d end
At the end, smile & laughter are all is seen
Joyful & gladness appeared
You have shown & gave the best you have..
No matter where where it ends
It'll stay in one's heart
We will never forget this moment
Thank you, for the hope you've showed us.. For hope is what makes us live
Thank you for not giving up!
danke!
dedicated to Team germany 2006
3rd winner of the 2006 World Cup
Oliver Khan, Jens Lehmann, Timo Hildebrand
Marcell Jansen, Arne Friedrich, Phillip Lahm, Christoph Metzelder, Per Mertsacker, Robert Huth, Jens Nowotny
David Odonkor, Thorsten Frings, Michael Ballack, Bernd Schneider, Tim Borowski, Sebastian Kehl, Bastian Sweinsteiger, Thomas Hitzlperger
Gerald Asamoah, Mike Hanke, Oliver Neuville, Lucas Podolski, Miroslav Klose
Oliver Bierhoff, Andreas Keopke, Joachim Leow, & most of all
JUERGEN KLINSMANN!
after the final, 10th July 2006
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
uncle
2 days ago i became an uncle of a boy named Vincentius Sebastian Lee Marciano...
hmmm... sounds an italian eh? hehehe..
and the only brother i have doesn't have a girlfriend yet!
hmmm... sounds an italian eh? hehehe..
and the only brother i have doesn't have a girlfriend yet!
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Auf wiedersehn & welcome hope
Finally, the German lost their game to Italy at the semi…
A match with breath taking moments
The youngster had performed a new breed of a new German team…
They may be lost, but definitely there is a new hope…
One end is a new start
A start of hope…
So, welcome hope
A match with breath taking moments
The youngster had performed a new breed of a new German team…
They may be lost, but definitely there is a new hope…
One end is a new start
A start of hope…
So, welcome hope
Friday, June 23, 2006
FOOTBALL, again
its still football... WORLD CUP!
again and again..
wel , the german side has perform well to get the maximum points...
second round is againts sweden...
gonna be more interesting,
i hope...
again and again..
wel , the german side has perform well to get the maximum points...
second round is againts sweden...
gonna be more interesting,
i hope...
Thursday, June 15, 2006
WORLD CUP fever
its the Germany FIFA World Cup!
all 32 teams will battle to win the single cup..
its been a week now,
and so far i'v only watched the live action when its deutschland playing
the other.. wel, doesn't matter much..
i prefer to sleep and save my energy
the deutschland has gone through the knockout phase
with 4-2 win against Costa Rica and 1 - 0 against Poland
and so is the astonishing ecuador
and well, england..with their pride of the nation..
who will come next?
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
choice...
Every word must have its action...
speak of the rule...coz that is what rule is all about
sometimes rule doesn't talk about feeling, compassion and forgiveness
and that is why making a decision for people breaking the rules are hard..
over a week this problem had been around more than one head..
buzzing around on and off.. causing a huge mixture in the atmosphere
all the emotions erupt!
rage between parents, students and teachers...
love and hate...
right and wrong...
its all about choices...
i keep thinking about it everyday...
hope that the solution could be the best
and i learn something..
besides the truth, fact...
the desires and hope for the better...
love and care..
politic talks...
even the simplest truth can be turned...
what a world we live in...
what a school i'm in to...
but in the end i believe i was there for a purpose
to keep making the better even from the worse..
and again, its a choice...
speak of the rule...coz that is what rule is all about
sometimes rule doesn't talk about feeling, compassion and forgiveness
and that is why making a decision for people breaking the rules are hard..
over a week this problem had been around more than one head..
buzzing around on and off.. causing a huge mixture in the atmosphere
all the emotions erupt!
rage between parents, students and teachers...
love and hate...
right and wrong...
its all about choices...
i keep thinking about it everyday...
hope that the solution could be the best
and i learn something..
besides the truth, fact...
the desires and hope for the better...
love and care..
politic talks...
even the simplest truth can be turned...
what a world we live in...
what a school i'm in to...
but in the end i believe i was there for a purpose
to keep making the better even from the worse..
and again, its a choice...
long road
knowledge and action....
mind and will
sometimes it contradict itself...
exploding a battle in your self
a battle on a long road...
where will you be..
what will you be ..
a question on a never ending journey
mind and will
sometimes it contradict itself...
exploding a battle in your self
a battle on a long road...
where will you be..
what will you be ..
a question on a never ending journey
Friday, April 28, 2006
walk
i walk in a line...
i watch the trees and feel the wind blowing soft..
smooth, lovely & beauty blend in a mixtures you cannot say..
leaves falling to the ground one by one as i keep my steps..
walking my road with a smile...
the road ahead seemms narrowed
slowly i get nearby..
i think for while, and i remembered what i just felt
and with no hesitation i walked on
the road is still the same
but somehow i'm shakin.. i tremble on my walk
i walked in doubt
where am i going?
where does this road leads me?
i stood there for a while
trying to feel the wind and the falling leaves again..
but there is none...
where am i?
why am i here?
i see the road.. it is still the same..
i see around.. it stood still, nothing changes
then why i feel so different? i cant move my lips to smile
i see the road again..
i wanna keep walking
but my feet seems so hard to make the steps
i wanna keep walking....
i wanna keep walking....
i know i have to keep walking
i wanna keep walking...
i watch the trees and feel the wind blowing soft..
smooth, lovely & beauty blend in a mixtures you cannot say..
leaves falling to the ground one by one as i keep my steps..
walking my road with a smile...
the road ahead seemms narrowed
slowly i get nearby..
i think for while, and i remembered what i just felt
and with no hesitation i walked on
the road is still the same
but somehow i'm shakin.. i tremble on my walk
i walked in doubt
where am i going?
where does this road leads me?
i stood there for a while
trying to feel the wind and the falling leaves again..
but there is none...
where am i?
why am i here?
i see the road.. it is still the same..
i see around.. it stood still, nothing changes
then why i feel so different? i cant move my lips to smile
i see the road again..
i wanna keep walking
but my feet seems so hard to make the steps
i wanna keep walking....
i wanna keep walking....
i know i have to keep walking
i wanna keep walking...
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Selena, again...
today i found something about her...
it was just days after the doctors in singapore said that they give up on her, she went away for good..
coming back to the Father's house
after noticing what the doctors had told her, she finally can surrender he life to God and let go everything she had and make peace with it
and i believe, she walks home with a smile,
a happy face knowing that she already completed her part in this world...
and when it came to me,.. i ask my self
how far have i done my part in this world?
it was just days after the doctors in singapore said that they give up on her, she went away for good..
coming back to the Father's house
after noticing what the doctors had told her, she finally can surrender he life to God and let go everything she had and make peace with it
and i believe, she walks home with a smile,
a happy face knowing that she already completed her part in this world...
and when it came to me,.. i ask my self
how far have i done my part in this world?
Thursday, April 20, 2006
coin
Life is like a coin..
when a face heads up, the other face down...
its just like 2 of my students at school..
one is very happy these days..
falling in love and the star seemed shining bright on her
filling her life with smile and doin' funny things...
fantastic moments with good grade keeps showin' up
how could anything beat that?
the other, is very sad at the moment
she just break up ..
angry, lonely, desparete, lost, sad, disoriented as she said it her self
not even the bright sun can cheer her up
cloudy dayz as it passes by
ah, what a contrary life has brought up to people
a contrary, in which,.. we can always learn and surrender to the lord
coz we are nothing, build to be important in Him...
as we don't know the future nor His plan..
as we walk in His way..
then the sun will always shine again,
brighter than before...
when a face heads up, the other face down...
its just like 2 of my students at school..
one is very happy these days..
falling in love and the star seemed shining bright on her
filling her life with smile and doin' funny things...
fantastic moments with good grade keeps showin' up
how could anything beat that?
the other, is very sad at the moment
she just break up ..
angry, lonely, desparete, lost, sad, disoriented as she said it her self
not even the bright sun can cheer her up
cloudy dayz as it passes by
ah, what a contrary life has brought up to people
a contrary, in which,.. we can always learn and surrender to the lord
coz we are nothing, build to be important in Him...
as we don't know the future nor His plan..
as we walk in His way..
then the sun will always shine again,
brighter than before...
Monday, April 17, 2006
Amazing Love
Amazing Love, how could it be 
That you my king would die for me
Amazing Love, I know its true
Its my joy to honour You
In all i do...
That you my king would die for me
Amazing Love, I know its true
Its my joy to honour You
In all i do...
Selena
I don’t know this girl..
I just know that she’s still young, aged 30 something and had a cancer
All the people at IES had been praying for her for over a month,...
No doctors in Indonesia are willing to take care of her..
So she went to singapore last week.
And the result are the same, all the doctors gave up since the cancer had spread all over her body..
She went back to Indonesia on Tuesday, and we prayed for her again on Good Friday at the service.
The church opens a list for anyone who would sign up to pray for her.
I didn’t sign but i’ve prayed for her twice last week at home.
On Saturday, she passed away...
So quick..
how would she felt when the doctors said that there is no hope for her?
Hope, is something that makes us live...
For how can we live without hope?
His resurections gives us hope,..
To live in this world with faith,
To live with righteousness...
for He had died for our sin..
I just know that she’s still young, aged 30 something and had a cancer
All the people at IES had been praying for her for over a month,...
No doctors in Indonesia are willing to take care of her..
So she went to singapore last week.
And the result are the same, all the doctors gave up since the cancer had spread all over her body..
She went back to Indonesia on Tuesday, and we prayed for her again on Good Friday at the service.
The church opens a list for anyone who would sign up to pray for her.
I didn’t sign but i’ve prayed for her twice last week at home.
On Saturday, she passed away...
So quick..
how would she felt when the doctors said that there is no hope for her?
Hope, is something that makes us live...
For how can we live without hope?
His resurections gives us hope,..
To live in this world with faith,
To live with righteousness...
for He had died for our sin..
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
shortcut
i like shortcuts
it makes everything faster than it has to be..
it simples thing, saves time and energy as well
life is easier that way ey?
but the result of it more often like the way it is..
just like me...
it makes everything faster than it has to be..
it simples thing, saves time and energy as well
life is easier that way ey?
but the result of it more often like the way it is..
just like me...
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Abraham...
Aku seumpama Abraham,
yang dipanggil dari kemapanan dan kenyamanan
ke suatu negeri antah berantah.
Maka aku akan mengalir.
Dengan doa:
“Ini aku, Tuhan.
Pakailah seturut kehendak-Mu.”
yang dipanggil dari kemapanan dan kenyamanan
ke suatu negeri antah berantah.
Maka aku akan mengalir.
Dengan doa:
“Ini aku, Tuhan.
Pakailah seturut kehendak-Mu.”
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
believe & belong...
into your hands i commit again
all i am for you Lord
you hold my word in the palm of your hands
and i'm yours forever....
i'll walk with you, wherever you go
through tears and joy, i'll trust in you
and i will live in all your ways...
in all your promise
forever...
all i am for you Lord
you hold my word in the palm of your hands
and i'm yours forever....
i'll walk with you, wherever you go
through tears and joy, i'll trust in you
and i will live in all your ways...
in all your promise
forever...
I believe in you, I belong to you
in all i do... with all i am
Monday, March 13, 2006
Piano
life is like a piano..
The white keys represent happiness
and the black show sadness
but as you go thru life's journey
remember that the black keys make music too...
Faith
I am learning about faith..
it is never easy, coz it had to deal with problems
and those problems were never easy too...
believe and surrender...
i'm glad that He teach me in certain ways
can't say that i'm happy with the problem,
but i'm happy to know that He loved me so much,
that He cared for me and teach me new things to be better and better each day..
to be the man He wanted me to be.
and I know that i can deal with it coz He has given me the strength.
And nothing is beyond that.. nothing i face is bigger than the power inside me..
I can coz He enables me ...
i put my faith in You...
sometimes i stumble...
sometimes i doubt...
sometimes maybe i yelled
but let me yield before you
coz you are the greatest there is.....
it is never easy, coz it had to deal with problems
and those problems were never easy too...
believe and surrender...
i'm glad that He teach me in certain ways
can't say that i'm happy with the problem,
but i'm happy to know that He loved me so much,
that He cared for me and teach me new things to be better and better each day..
to be the man He wanted me to be.
and I know that i can deal with it coz He has given me the strength.
And nothing is beyond that.. nothing i face is bigger than the power inside me..
I can coz He enables me ...
i put my faith in You...
sometimes i stumble...
sometimes i doubt...
sometimes maybe i yelled
but let me yield before you
coz you are the greatest there is.....
Sunday, February 26, 2006
Push Your Personal Limit ! Ooow Yeah !
We Are The Champion
We Push Our Limit
Oyeah...oYeah.. O yeah...
this is the best PYPL Camp we've ever held, i guess...
the guys from UPH senate was great.. small groups, about 28 person...
they responded all the programs well and they push their limit !
and they really mean it! how awesome could it be?
so we enjoyed the program and so are they.. a very win win solution..
the rain just disturb a bit on the high impact outbound.
But again again again and again, ... thanks to the Lord for the weather and everything... coz again again and again, we saw His power & Glory .. everytime we held this program, we always see His miracle...
No words can describe it....
Hope to see them again one day..
well, ....
Kalimantan awaits now..
i'll be gone for 8 days...
a new challenge definitely, i just haven't got the touch yet..
need to focus tommorow...
i miss my bun..
We Push Our Limit
Oyeah...oYeah.. O yeah...
this is the best PYPL Camp we've ever held, i guess...
the guys from UPH senate was great.. small groups, about 28 person...
they responded all the programs well and they push their limit !
and they really mean it! how awesome could it be?
so we enjoyed the program and so are they.. a very win win solution..
the rain just disturb a bit on the high impact outbound.
But again again again and again, ... thanks to the Lord for the weather and everything... coz again again and again, we saw His power & Glory .. everytime we held this program, we always see His miracle...
No words can describe it....
Hope to see them again one day..
well, ....
Kalimantan awaits now..
i'll be gone for 8 days...
a new challenge definitely, i just haven't got the touch yet..
need to focus tommorow...
i miss my bun..
Sunday, February 19, 2006
happy day...
O Happy day... O happy daay....
O happy day...
today was great!
since last night i have this energy and excitement about today and it happened
so wonderful..
i joined a bible study program for 5 weeks
and the opening week was marvelous
i get to learn so many things.. and it revealed a lot about my faith and the way it should be
there's a dance at church today and it was fun..
well everything went well today...
and it has been a loong time since i wrote about bun..
ah, i missed her everyday.. hoping for a day when we can be together again..
but God has told me to use my time not to wait..
but to live happy, to search His will and be the person He wants me to be
so i want to end this day with a great feeling as well..
O happy day...
today was great!
since last night i have this energy and excitement about today and it happened
so wonderful..
i joined a bible study program for 5 weeks
and the opening week was marvelous
i get to learn so many things.. and it revealed a lot about my faith and the way it should be
there's a dance at church today and it was fun..
well everything went well today...
and it has been a loong time since i wrote about bun..
ah, i missed her everyday.. hoping for a day when we can be together again..
but God has told me to use my time not to wait..
but to live happy, to search His will and be the person He wants me to be
so i want to end this day with a great feeling as well..
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Lord,
Because love is patient...
Help me to be slow to judge, but quick to listen.
Hesitant to critize, but eager to encourage,
Remembering your endless patience with me.
Because love is kind...
Help my words to be gentle and my actions to be thoughtful.
Remind me to smile and to say “please” and “thank you”
Because those little things still mean so much
Because love does not envy or boast, and it is not proud...
Help me have a heart that is humble and sees the good in others.
May i celebrate and appreciate all that i have ad all that i am, as well as doing the same for those around me...
Because love is not rude or self seeking...
Help me to speak words that are easy on the ear and on the heart.
When i’m tempted to get wrapped up in my own little world, remind me there’s a great big world out there full of needs and hurts
Because love is not easily angered and keeps no records of wrongs...
Help me to forgive others as you have forgiven me
When I want to hold onto a grudge, gently help me release it so i can reach out with a hand of love instead
Because love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth...
Help me stand up for what is right and good. May i defend the defenseless, and help the helpless.
Show me how I can make the difference
Because love always protects and always trusts...
Help me to be a refuge for those around me.
When the world outside is harsh and cold, may my heart be a place of acceptance and warmth
Finally, because love always preserves...
Help my heart continually beat the love for You and others
Thank you for this day when we celebrate love, and for showing us what that word really means.
Amen..
Holley Gerth
Because love is patient...
Help me to be slow to judge, but quick to listen.
Hesitant to critize, but eager to encourage,
Remembering your endless patience with me.
Because love is kind...
Help my words to be gentle and my actions to be thoughtful.
Remind me to smile and to say “please” and “thank you”
Because those little things still mean so much
Because love does not envy or boast, and it is not proud...
Help me have a heart that is humble and sees the good in others.
May i celebrate and appreciate all that i have ad all that i am, as well as doing the same for those around me...
Because love is not rude or self seeking...
Help me to speak words that are easy on the ear and on the heart.
When i’m tempted to get wrapped up in my own little world, remind me there’s a great big world out there full of needs and hurts
Because love is not easily angered and keeps no records of wrongs...
Help me to forgive others as you have forgiven me
When I want to hold onto a grudge, gently help me release it so i can reach out with a hand of love instead
Because love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth...
Help me stand up for what is right and good. May i defend the defenseless, and help the helpless.
Show me how I can make the difference
Because love always protects and always trusts...
Help me to be a refuge for those around me.
When the world outside is harsh and cold, may my heart be a place of acceptance and warmth
Finally, because love always preserves...
Help my heart continually beat the love for You and others
Thank you for this day when we celebrate love, and for showing us what that word really means.
Amen..
Holley Gerth
Friday, February 10, 2006
perception..
Perception & perspective...
each one word, so many ideas and thoughts...
a word which can unite..
a word which can destroy..
how hard is it to control them?
for as long as you live, you'll always have perception & perspective
a very hard way to unite these two things..
everybody can be right... they just have different perception and perspective.
but because of that.. a war can start...
a relation can be broke...
such a meaningful word to live with..
each one word, so many ideas and thoughts...
a word which can unite..
a word which can destroy..
how hard is it to control them?
for as long as you live, you'll always have perception & perspective
a very hard way to unite these two things..
everybody can be right... they just have different perception and perspective.
but because of that.. a war can start...
a relation can be broke...
such a meaningful word to live with..
week 3
i had to postponed my fasting since the sinshe gave me some medicine i had to drink...
the 2 days of fasting are marvelous...
and somehow, till the end of this week i kept thinking i'm fasting.. or at least i pray about things to ask and to do...
this week my brain worked again.. lots of jobs done and new ideas poped-up..
next weeks gonna be another heavy training ...
need to secure my body sice there are sooo many sick people around
the damn thing is that i didn't swim this week...
no exercise... sigh... next week have to be better...
the 2 days of fasting are marvelous...
and somehow, till the end of this week i kept thinking i'm fasting.. or at least i pray about things to ask and to do...
this week my brain worked again.. lots of jobs done and new ideas poped-up..
next weeks gonna be another heavy training ...
need to secure my body sice there are sooo many sick people around
the damn thing is that i didn't swim this week...
no exercise... sigh... next week have to be better...
Monday, February 06, 2006
2nd week
2nd week of fasting....
never thought i could fast at camp...
amazingly, i could =D
its getting better last week
still hard to control my self though....
but i hope each week there are more progress
i pray the lord keep my soul to thee..
so what i see, i can see from His eyes..
what i said are words from His mouth..
what i think is from His mind..
what i feel comes from His heart..
and what i do, comes from my faith to Him....
never thought i could fast at camp...
amazingly, i could =D
its getting better last week
still hard to control my self though....
but i hope each week there are more progress
i pray the lord keep my soul to thee..
so what i see, i can see from His eyes..
what i said are words from His mouth..
what i think is from His mind..
what i feel comes from His heart..
and what i do, comes from my faith to Him....
Friday, January 27, 2006
Fasting....
a week i've been fasting....
a hard week to obtain my health... sigh..
well, at least i've managed it though..
gladly..
we'll see next week...
a hard week to obtain my health... sigh..
well, at least i've managed it though..
gladly..
we'll see next week...
Monday, January 23, 2006
here i am
light of the world
you stepped down into darkness
open my eyes let me see
beauty that made this heart adores you
hope for a life spent with you
here i am to worship
here i am to bow down
here i am to say that you're my God
all together lovely...
all together worthy...
all together wonderful to me
king of all days
oh so highly exalted
glorious in heaven above
humbly you came to the world you created
all for love's sake became poor
i'll never know ho much it cost
to see my sins upon that cross
call upon the name of the lord
and be saved...
here i am to worship...
you stepped down into darkness
open my eyes let me see
beauty that made this heart adores you
hope for a life spent with you
here i am to worship
here i am to bow down
here i am to say that you're my God
all together lovely...
all together worthy...
all together wonderful to me
king of all days
oh so highly exalted
glorious in heaven above
humbly you came to the world you created
all for love's sake became poor
i'll never know ho much it cost
to see my sins upon that cross
call upon the name of the lord
and be saved...
here i am to worship...
buitenzorg
A memorious weekend @ buitenzorg.. whatever that means
I had a wedding invitation, its an old friend
It had great video & pre wed pictures
I miss bun a lot,.. hoping she was there with me
the only desire rob n i have is to meet tungs..
haven't heard any news from her since a while
and yea.. we met her.. and afterwards we go to talk..
like usual times.. old times..
always bring joy when we had this moment
a moment to treasure, while we can..
the next day i met titondut & marie..
they told me bout their honeymoon
he's damn fatso =P
but its nice to see them happy, such a newly weds couple..
my best friend.. hope the happiness never ends eh man?
eniwei, above all, bun's sharing was the most loveliest thing that happened that day
at night, i met togi. haven't met him since 12 years ago.. and yesterday might be the last time i ever see him, since he's going back to germany this weekend..
ah, how time flies by... you never know..
but its great that we have this friendship.. a loong lasting one i believe
i close the day with give thanks as He close the day with the brightness of the moon and smiling stars..
buitenzorg, 22 januari 2006
a city i once wish to forget..
I had a wedding invitation, its an old friend
It had great video & pre wed pictures
I miss bun a lot,.. hoping she was there with me
the only desire rob n i have is to meet tungs..
haven't heard any news from her since a while
and yea.. we met her.. and afterwards we go to talk..
like usual times.. old times..
always bring joy when we had this moment
a moment to treasure, while we can..
the next day i met titondut & marie..
they told me bout their honeymoon
he's damn fatso =P
but its nice to see them happy, such a newly weds couple..
my best friend.. hope the happiness never ends eh man?
eniwei, above all, bun's sharing was the most loveliest thing that happened that day
at night, i met togi. haven't met him since 12 years ago.. and yesterday might be the last time i ever see him, since he's going back to germany this weekend..
ah, how time flies by... you never know..
but its great that we have this friendship.. a loong lasting one i believe
i close the day with give thanks as He close the day with the brightness of the moon and smiling stars..
buitenzorg, 22 januari 2006
a city i once wish to forget..
Monday, December 26, 2005
X mas is here?
x mas has passed...
but where is it? i didn't realize that at all
i didn't realize its coming..
but where is it? i didn't realize that at all
i didn't realize its coming..
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
flying back home, again
tomorrow i'll be flying back home..
but this time i feel like i wasn't ready to go..
still lots of thing to do or my prep for coming home is not ready...
weird..i'm coming to my freedom but i don't feel happy
excited yeaa.. but not happy....
but i really want to go home...
its just weird..
so well, i'll be flying back home, again....
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Who?
I was walking on water.... or feel like water, i guess
I see the distance, its a horizon filled with birds flying, clouds whispering
i smile seing the glorious wonder and i looked down..
there's an image of me
i keep smiling till i see that the image is not smiling...
i wonder why....
i looked closer, i even step and move my feet around on the water to make sure i am seeing the same image
it still didn't smile...
i take my time to think while the sun lower herself down to sleep
i see the image back and forth, no changes...
till it finally dissapear when the world turn over
"its not me!!" i shouted..
but why is it looked like me?
I see the distance, its a horizon filled with birds flying, clouds whispering
i smile seing the glorious wonder and i looked down..
there's an image of me
i keep smiling till i see that the image is not smiling...
i wonder why....
i looked closer, i even step and move my feet around on the water to make sure i am seeing the same image
it still didn't smile...
i take my time to think while the sun lower herself down to sleep
i see the image back and forth, no changes...
till it finally dissapear when the world turn over
"its not me!!" i shouted..
but why is it looked like me?
another time of the year
this is the end of 2005...
the last month.
i dunno where to put my heart...or where my heart is
its somewhere blur or on a crossover
hard to try to picture a beautiful end.
Hope floats everywhere for open hearted & opened eyes
but sometimes we just don't want to open it
coz when its closed you'll see nothing, feel nothing
maybe just a sense of quietness and peace
is it?
the last month.
i dunno where to put my heart...or where my heart is
its somewhere blur or on a crossover
hard to try to picture a beautiful end.
Hope floats everywhere for open hearted & opened eyes
but sometimes we just don't want to open it
coz when its closed you'll see nothing, feel nothing
maybe just a sense of quietness and peace
is it?
Thursday, December 01, 2005
blebeQ..blebeQ
i'm drowning.....
i don't know where and why...BlebeQ blebeQ
i'm just drowning...
blebeQ...
i don't know where and why...BlebeQ blebeQ
i'm just drowning...
blebeQ...
Monday, November 21, 2005
ends...
finally it ends.. i'm off the training season..yipiee!! =D
relief it brings, yes...
now i can do more things... reading, watch movies, playing, have fun.. & definitely take a rest for a while.... and other things as well
but at the same day, it also ends a life of a friends father...
deepest condolence for you adit..
wel, every start has an ending...
and every ending always marks another new start...
relief it brings, yes...
now i can do more things... reading, watch movies, playing, have fun.. & definitely take a rest for a while.... and other things as well
but at the same day, it also ends a life of a friends father...
deepest condolence for you adit..
wel, every start has an ending...
and every ending always marks another new start...
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
2 more... 2 more!
just 2 more training n it's over!
yup.. i'll be sittin behind my table again, working on new progams for next year. usually i don't really like working behind tables and i prefer camps and training.. but, well.. when you're full loaded with these things.. you just hope it ends...
& well, after all this non stop camp & training season, finally it will end.. at least i'm not in charge anymore when there's another training this year... =P
i can rest my body and began to sharpen my mind again..
which i need badly.. hehehe
so this weekend says it all... n after that...
I'm FREE baby!!!
yup.. i'll be sittin behind my table again, working on new progams for next year. usually i don't really like working behind tables and i prefer camps and training.. but, well.. when you're full loaded with these things.. you just hope it ends...
& well, after all this non stop camp & training season, finally it will end.. at least i'm not in charge anymore when there's another training this year... =P
i can rest my body and began to sharpen my mind again..
which i need badly.. hehehe
so this weekend says it all... n after that...
I'm FREE baby!!!
online..
i woke up this morning n found out that my computer has been online for 2 hours...
nobody was here, just me...strange...
did i dream, turn my computer on n didn't realized any of it?
i don't know..
Monday, November 14, 2005
black coffee..
i got this from a friend.. a coffeemania i guess =P
you drink coffee not because it's sweet
but more because it's bitter..
coz then you hope it'll make you feel better
bitter and better... two words that separated by a vocal
but had far different meaning
but when u feel bitter and you get better
thats when life counts..
wel, eventually everything will get better don't it?
you drink coffee not because it's sweet
but more because it's bitter..
coz then you hope it'll make you feel better
bitter and better... two words that separated by a vocal
but had far different meaning
but when u feel bitter and you get better
thats when life counts..
wel, eventually everything will get better don't it?
november rain
hah! gak nyangka dah lama gak ngisi ni blog.. kangen juga hehehe
banyak sih things that happen with me during this time..
frustration, tired, lonely, weak, kebanyakan sih itu..hehe
haven't been my best days
but i know its a test... its a training for me to be better.. to be stronger..
to have more faith and keep being happy..
to explore my leadership, upload my wisdom & patience...
ah, just to be better deh pokoknya...
lots of sad stories around me this month..
and it happen to people and friends that i care...
must've been hard these days... dunno why it all happened at the same time..
well, i guess it hadn't been the best days for them as well..
break ups and break down.. none of them r good to see or hear
as the word said..
its just another november rain..
hangin' there everybody, the sun will go up again for us!!
banyak sih things that happen with me during this time..
frustration, tired, lonely, weak, kebanyakan sih itu..hehe
haven't been my best days
but i know its a test... its a training for me to be better.. to be stronger..
to have more faith and keep being happy..
to explore my leadership, upload my wisdom & patience...
ah, just to be better deh pokoknya...
lots of sad stories around me this month..
and it happen to people and friends that i care...
must've been hard these days... dunno why it all happened at the same time..
well, i guess it hadn't been the best days for them as well..
break ups and break down.. none of them r good to see or hear
as the word said..
its just another november rain..
hangin' there everybody, the sun will go up again for us!!
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