ends...

finally it ends.. i'm off the training season..yipiee!! =D
relief it brings, yes...
now i can do more things... reading, watch movies, playing, have fun.. & definitely take a rest for a while.... and other things as well
but at the same day, it also ends a life of a friends father...
deepest condolence for you adit..

wel, every start has an ending...
and every ending always marks another new start...

2 more... 2 more!

just 2 more training n it's over!
yup.. i'll be sittin behind my table again, working on new progams for next year. usually i don't really like working behind tables and i prefer camps and training.. but, well.. when you're full loaded with these things.. you just hope it ends...
& well, after all this non stop camp & training season, finally it will end.. at least i'm not in charge anymore when there's another training this year... =P
i can rest my body and began to sharpen my mind again..
which i need badly.. hehehe
so this weekend says it all... n after that...
I'm FREE baby!!!

online..

i woke up this morning n found out that my computer has been online for 2 hours...

nobody was here, just me...strange...

did i dream, turn my computer on n didn't realized any of it?

i don't know..

black coffee..

i got this from a friend.. a coffeemania i guess =P

you drink coffee not because it's sweet
but more because it's bitter..
coz then you hope it'll make you feel better

bitter and better... two words that separated by a vocal
but had far different meaning
but when u feel bitter and you get better
thats when life counts..
wel, eventually everything will get better don't it?

november rain

hah! gak nyangka dah lama gak ngisi ni blog.. kangen juga hehehe
banyak sih things that happen with me during this time..
frustration, tired, lonely, weak, kebanyakan sih itu..hehe
haven't been my best days

but i know its a test... its a training for me to be better.. to be stronger..
to have more faith and keep being happy..
to explore my leadership, upload my wisdom & patience...
ah, just to be better deh pokoknya...

lots of sad stories around me this month..
and it happen to people and friends that i care...
must've been hard these days... dunno why it all happened at the same time..
well, i guess it hadn't been the best days for them as well..
break ups and break down.. none of them r good to see or hear

as the word said..
its just another november rain..
hangin' there everybody, the sun will go up again for us!!

Magic

Magic still happen.. or is it miracle?
hard to tell the difference in this matter..
but something happened at camp that is hard to tell...
one thing to say is.. God is so amazing!

when do you ever held something in a rainy season and everytime you're doing the activity, the rain stopped, while in other places it rained heavily? this is just not one time, but continuously when we are outside camp doing outdoor activity, from morning till night... and when we're not on the show, thats when the rain dropped ... one word.. amazing!

that's one of the small miracle.. but that's not what i'm talking about
this camp changes lives... in a flick
its amazing how i can see all these..

2 more push your personal limit camp this week
its time now, to push our limit!
and we'll see the magic, and the beauty of God....

PUSH YOUR PERSONAL LIMIT

It's coming again...
the Push Your Personal Limit Camp season
its always... always fun.. hahahaha...
tiring definitely and the theme works for us as well
we have to push our butt on makin this camp worked out
dealing with the nature is harder than anything
stil.. we can enjoy all of them nicely =D
and see how God is soo good.. and incredible!
He is an awesome God indeed..

this time the flow run smoother than the last one..
each of us understood the purpose and it helped a lot in working together
3 waves are still on the way, it's a good beginning and a good start
so, gotta push my own limit then...
back to camping site sunday...

kid...

I’m a kid...

I’m still a kid.

Or at least i still act and think like one....

Meat

Today i made a resolution to be a vegan for 5 days..

And tommorow starts my fasting week..

No meat, sugar, egg, chocolate, and similar stuff

We’ll see what’ll happen

Perfect day, almost....

Today is a wonderful day.. a great and perfect.

I began with a smile, loads of prayer, such a beautiful time

My best friend is getting married today... congrats for you man!

12 years!! Never found someone who can last a relation that long

Come to the wedding with robert, tons of inspiration

Everything went well... perfectly well,

Until i was hit by a bus... damn! Couldn’t react much about it as well..

The car was wrecked enough to made me shocked

Don’t how much it’ll cost to fix it...
Just a perfect day,.. almost

anniversarry

todays my parents anniversarry...
quite fun.. but why do i suddenly feel so alone?
....

homee !!!!

eventhough i never feel i have a home =P,
but the tag line shows everything in my mind
i miss this blog more than ever this week =D

HOmE.. or at least this place i could sleep,
i could open my computer and write,...
read mails, chat and whatever ....

so, here i am...
back @ home...

at a glance...

I happen to get the chance to came back from puncak.

Tomorrow i had to teach @ school

it always brings pleasure, this school thing...

but these days its harder than ever...

i still love the atmosphere and stuff, but with new team and new curicculum, its full of challenge which right now i'm not quite ready to deal with...

and i don't wanna make this an experiment, their just too precious

these 2 days were so tiring, i felt tensed and exhausted..

the kids r difficult to control but in the end today went well and i just love it!
so,

in the middle of the night, with whats left in my body,

i just hope the best for tomorrow even though i could only feel it at a glance...

morning....

Funny how I always wake up early in the morning

no matter how tired I am at nite or the whole day,

i just end up wakin up early, just like today....

maybe it has become my body mechanism..

or is it my unconcious mind?

well....

actually it is nice to wake up early...

u can just pray to start a day and when u go outside

u can see a beautiful morning ...

u can start an early day...

a way to live your life longer, as long as you're healthy enough =D
so hi,

good mornin' World...

good mornin' God...

i wish it would be a good day for me.. 

and to all

Lag..

i just hate lagging...
specially right now! ....
hehehehehehee.....

condolence...

A friend of mine has just lost his dear girlfriend...

tragic, when they were supposed to get married this year...

with only months to count,

every dream fade away

every laughter ease away

every hope seemed to lost its place...

I wish her in heaven for a better place to live

She's safe now my friend...

deepest condolence for you, vo...

when I don't know ...

What is the purpose of living?

What is the meaning of anything I've been living...?

I live my days with happiness

I live my life with give thanks

So why? why do I have to receive all this?

When everything had an answer.. maybe i'll know

Why my life is such like this..

For now, i just have to live it, though maybe right now i don't want to

though maybe i don't know where to go...

I'll just have to keep living...

keep fighting and searching my friend...

He has His own will in your life...

How hard and tough it would be...

Hang in there...

(a tribute to bravo, a very nice and kind friend)

up.. up.. up and away....

remember those lines?

wel, finally it had to come...

today i return from heaven

back to the earth, step my feet back on the ground

i'm sad allrite, but this time it leaves hope

a hope....

for a brighter future...

for a better tomorrow ...

tik..tok..tik..tok...

tick...tock....tick...tock....

time is ticking very fast...

soon the best days are gonna be over...

gonna be pretty sad,

but it'll leave something beautiful,

something worth living for...

something worth fighting for....

tick... tock...tick...tock...

FLying Free

its a song i heard last nite..

remembering all the past in life,

about love and pain, and walk to the future,

being a gift of joy....

There is a place I call my own

where I can stand by the sea,

and look beyond the things I've known,

and dream that Ii might be free

Like the bird above the trees

gliding gently on the breeze,

I wish that all my life I'd be

without a care, and flying free!

But life is not a distant sky

without a cloud, without rain

and I can never hope

that I can travel on without pain.

Time goes swiftly on its way

All too soon we've lost to way

All too soon we've lost to day

I can not wait skies of blue

or dream so long that life is through.

So life's a song that i must sing,

a gift of love I must share

And when I see the joy it brings

my spirit soar to the air

Like that bird up in the sky,

life has taught me how to fly

For now I know what I can be

and now my heart is flying Free!