Abraham...

Aku seumpama Abraham,
yang dipanggil dari kemapanan dan kenyamanan
ke suatu negeri antah berantah.

Maka aku akan mengalir.
Dengan doa:
“Ini aku, Tuhan.
Pakailah seturut kehendak-Mu.”

believe & belong...

into your hands i commit again
all i am for you Lord
you hold my word in the palm of your hands
and i'm yours forever....
i'll walk with you, wherever you go
through tears and joy, i'll trust in you
and i will live in all your ways...
in all your promise
forever...

I believe in you, I belong to you

in all i do... with all i am

Piano

life is like a piano..
The white keys represent happiness
and the black show sadness
but as you go thru life's journey
remember that the black keys make music too...

Faith

I am learning about faith..
it is never easy, coz it had to deal with problems
and those problems were never easy too...

believe and surrender...
i'm glad that He teach me in certain ways
can't say that i'm happy with the problem,
but i'm happy to know that He loved me so much,
that He cared for me and teach me new things to be better and better each day..
to be the man He wanted me to be.
and I know that i can deal with it coz He has given me the strength.
And nothing is beyond that.. nothing i face is bigger than the power inside me..
I can coz He enables me ...

i put my faith in You...
sometimes i stumble...
sometimes i doubt...
sometimes maybe i yelled
but let me yield before you
coz you are the greatest there is.....

Push Your Personal Limit ! Ooow Yeah !

We Are The Champion
We Push Our Limit
Oyeah...oYeah.. O yeah...

this is the best PYPL Camp we've ever held, i guess...
the guys from UPH senate was great.. small groups, about 28 person...
they responded all the programs well and they push their limit !
and they really mean it! how awesome could it be?

so we enjoyed the program and so are they.. a very win win solution..
the rain just disturb a bit on the high impact outbound.
But again again again and again, ... thanks to the Lord for the weather and everything... coz again again and again, we saw His power & Glory .. everytime we held this program, we always see His miracle...
No words can describe it....

Hope to see them again one day..
well, ....
Kalimantan awaits now..
i'll be gone for 8 days...
a new challenge definitely, i just haven't got the touch yet..
need to focus tommorow...

i miss my bun..

happy day...

O Happy day... O happy daay....
O happy day...

today was great!
since last night i have this energy and excitement about today and it happened
so wonderful..
i joined a bible study program for 5 weeks
and the opening week was marvelous
i get to learn so many things.. and it revealed a lot about my faith and the way it should be
there's a dance at church today and it was fun..
well everything went well today...

and it has been a loong time since i wrote about bun..
ah, i missed her everyday.. hoping for a day when we can be together again..
but God has told me to use my time not to wait..
but to live happy, to search His will and be the person He wants me to be
so i want to end this day with a great feeling as well..

Lord,
Because love is patient...
Help me to be slow to judge, but quick to listen.
Hesitant to critize, but eager to encourage,
Remembering your endless patience with me.

Because love is kind...
Help my words to be gentle and my actions to be thoughtful.
Remind me to smile and to say “please” and “thank you”
Because those little things still mean so much

Because love does not envy or boast, and it is not proud...
Help me have a heart that is humble and sees the good in others.
May i celebrate and appreciate all that i have ad all that i am, as well as doing the same for those around me...

Because love is not rude or self seeking...
Help me to speak words that are easy on the ear and on the heart.
When i’m tempted to get wrapped up in my own little world, remind me there’s a great big world out there full of needs and hurts

Because love is not easily angered and keeps no records of wrongs...
Help me to forgive others as you have forgiven me
When I want to hold onto a grudge, gently help me release it so i can reach out with a hand of love instead

Because love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth...
Help me stand up for what is right and good. May i defend the defenseless, and help the helpless.
Show me how I can make the difference

Because love always protects and always trusts...
Help me to be a refuge for those around me.
When the world outside is harsh and cold, may my heart be a place of acceptance and warmth

Finally, because love always preserves...
Help my heart continually beat the love for You and others
Thank you for this day when we celebrate love, and for showing us what that word really means.

Amen..

Holley Gerth

perception..

Perception & perspective...
each one word, so many ideas and thoughts...
a word which can unite..
a word which can destroy..
how hard is it to control them?
for as long as you live, you'll always have perception & perspective
a very hard way to unite these two things..
everybody can be right... they just have different perception and perspective.
but because of that.. a war can start...
a relation can be broke...
such a meaningful word to live with..

week 3

i had to postponed my fasting since the sinshe gave me some medicine i had to drink...
the 2 days of fasting are marvelous...
and somehow, till the end of this week i kept thinking i'm fasting.. or at least i pray about things to ask and to do...
this week my brain worked again.. lots of jobs done and new ideas poped-up..
next weeks gonna be another heavy training ...
need to secure my body sice there are sooo many sick people around
the damn thing is that i didn't swim this week...
no exercise... sigh... next week have to be better...

2nd week

2nd week of fasting....
never thought i could fast at camp...
amazingly, i could =D
its getting better last week
still hard to control my self though....
but i hope each week there are more progress

i pray the lord keep my soul to thee..
so what i see, i can see from His eyes..
what i said are words from His mouth..
what i think is from His mind..
what i feel comes from His heart..
and what i do, comes from my faith to Him....

Fasting....

a week i've been fasting....
a hard week to obtain my health... sigh..
well, at least i've managed it though..
gladly..

we'll see next week...

here i am

light of the world
you stepped down into darkness
open my eyes let me see
beauty that made this heart adores you
hope for a life spent with you

here i am to worship
here i am to bow down
here i am to say that you're my God
all together lovely...
all together worthy...
all together wonderful to me

king of all days
oh so highly exalted
glorious in heaven above
humbly you came to the world you created
all for love's sake became poor

i'll never know ho much it cost
to see my sins upon that cross

call upon the name of the lord
and be saved...

here i am to worship...

buitenzorg

A memorious weekend @ buitenzorg.. whatever that means
I had a wedding invitation, its an old friend
It had great video & pre wed pictures
I miss bun a lot,.. hoping she was there with me

the only desire rob n i have is to meet tungs..
haven't heard any news from her since a while
and yea.. we met her.. and afterwards we go to talk..
like usual times.. old times..
always bring joy when we had this moment
a moment to treasure, while we can..

the next day i met titondut & marie..
they told me bout their honeymoon
he's damn fatso =P
but its nice to see them happy, such a newly weds couple..
my best friend.. hope the happiness never ends eh man?

eniwei, above all, bun's sharing was the most loveliest thing that happened that day
at night, i met togi. haven't met him since 12 years ago.. and yesterday might be the last time i ever see him, since he's going back to germany this weekend..
ah, how time flies by... you never know..
but its great that we have this friendship.. a loong lasting one i believe
i close the day with give thanks as He close the day with the brightness of the moon and smiling stars..

buitenzorg, 22 januari 2006
a city i once wish to forget..

X mas is here?

x mas has passed...
but where is it? i didn't realize that at all
i didn't realize its coming..

flying back home, again

tomorrow i'll be flying back home..

but this time i feel like i wasn't ready to go..

still lots of thing to do or my prep for coming home is not ready...

weird..i'm coming to my freedom but i don't feel happy

excited yeaa.. but not happy....

but i really want to go home...

its just weird..

so well, i'll be flying back home, again....

Who?

I was walking on water.... or feel like water, i guess
I see the distance, its a horizon filled with birds flying, clouds whispering
i smile seing the glorious wonder and i looked down..
there's an image of me
i keep smiling till i see that the image is not smiling...
i wonder why....
i looked closer, i even step and move my feet around on the water to make sure i am seeing the same image
it still didn't smile...
i take my time to think while the sun lower herself down to sleep
i see the image back and forth, no changes...
till it finally dissapear when the world turn over
"its not me!!" i shouted..
but why is it looked like me?

another time of the year

this is the end of 2005...
the last month.
i dunno where to put my heart...or where my heart is
its somewhere blur or on a crossover
hard to try to picture a beautiful end.
Hope floats everywhere for open hearted & opened eyes
but sometimes we just don't want to open it
coz when its closed you'll see nothing, feel nothing
maybe just a sense of quietness and peace
is it?

blebeQ..blebeQ

i'm drowning.....
i don't know where and why...BlebeQ blebeQ
i'm just drowning...
blebeQ...

ends...

finally it ends.. i'm off the training season..yipiee!! =D
relief it brings, yes...
now i can do more things... reading, watch movies, playing, have fun.. & definitely take a rest for a while.... and other things as well
but at the same day, it also ends a life of a friends father...
deepest condolence for you adit..

wel, every start has an ending...
and every ending always marks another new start...

2 more... 2 more!

just 2 more training n it's over!
yup.. i'll be sittin behind my table again, working on new progams for next year. usually i don't really like working behind tables and i prefer camps and training.. but, well.. when you're full loaded with these things.. you just hope it ends...
& well, after all this non stop camp & training season, finally it will end.. at least i'm not in charge anymore when there's another training this year... =P
i can rest my body and began to sharpen my mind again..
which i need badly.. hehehe
so this weekend says it all... n after that...
I'm FREE baby!!!