bye, good friend

today i lost a very nice friend in the office...
she was sacked (a crude way to say) because of reasons that none of them are her fault, i think... its just the condition that had to be that way...
i'm speechless... stranded by what just happen this afternoon..
no farewell.. no nothing, just a simple tear
i'm sad.. hopeless with nothing i can do....
i watch her walk by leaving steps and memories away from the office...

bye ly, very nice to know you, its been a pleasure working with you...
success for you along the way....
and thanks for being such a good friend...
i'm gonna miss you that's for sure
i believe the sun still shines with you...

Fuzzzy

Fuzzy logic discbrain on!!!
what can i say?
every people make mistakes....

neue season

its the new season at school!!...
new kids, new principal,
new atmosphere, new added team, new outfit =D
lots of challenge difinitely... new modified curriculum....
more things to be done..
for me.. besides all that enthusiasm, i really miss the kids i used to teach
in the first 2 weeks there are lots of kids asking me whether i teach them again or not..
one of them even ask permission to go to the rest room to me..
a bit sad.. like a little needle stabbed to my heart... =D

wel,
its hard to change your focus to a very new surroundings.. this new class i mean
i still hang out with them at break time or after school hour..
better then ever i might say...
we played futsal again (and u know what, other kids knew that too!), had dinner @ seafood ayu with the boyz.. hang out with them.. life group again...
ah...

have new kids to pay attention to....
and i have only one year to do so...
things will be different i guess...
better or worse,
above all i just want Your name to be glorified

would you believe me?

if i said that i loved you, but i didn't show it much..
or maybe almost never....
would you believe me?
if i said that i care about you
without showing any signs of caring....
would you believe me?
if i said that i missed you..
yet i don't know how to comunicate with you..
would you believe me?
would you still believe me if didn't do anything for you or even say anything to you?
in all that matter... with everything that i never did, which maybe i should
i just wanna say ...
'i will love you forever, no matter what i do or what you do "

to
mom and dad.....
you're not perfect, but you're a true blessing for me

translator

a first time experience as a translator
hard... ecxausting...
really...
you have to listen carefully, listen fast & think fast to translate it...
in the other hand.. you have to understand the material as well..
i maen.. i'm not just being a translator.. i'm being a participant as well...
so i need the metarial, but in the other hand i have to try to translate it...
but thank God.. it went quite well with some mistakes here and there... hehehehe
gladly over...

darker...

I'm a long haired, darker and fatter guy...
some can be changed, some.. i guess not..

Today

today, you decided to resign...
today, you shown who you are...
today, you show your integrity, humility, and responsibility
really respect your decision though it might not what we all hope
you've shown spirit, nationalism, patriotism, dedication, optimism and HOPE
all the best for you in your journey of life

dedicated to Juergen Klinsmann, a noble man

Rick Warren

Today's the day that people have waited for a while at church.
Rick Warren is preaching on a joint sunday service at Shangrila ballroom.
Lots of crowd at the venue. Our life group split to 8.30 & 10.30.. Robert was there too.. I arrived on time, met rob but split seat.. Rick has a throat problems so he was replaced by one of his pastor team. But the preaching was good. Met k' haskar too..been a loong time since we've met.. Met ewa as well..
No disappointment at all..

Farewell Heroes

Everything has come to an end,
It hurts not to be number one when retirement is in front of the eye!
And Maybe this is the end for you in the World Cups
But you are all heroes that will shine & last in memories

Oliver Kahn -
you are always number one, even when you're not in the field


Jens Lehmann -
Superb work through out the year. You've proven that Klinsmann is not wrong to pick you as number 1

Jens Nowotny -
You're always a figure to follow for the young German defence







Bernd Schneider -
You never stop fighting till the end. A true German spirit












Oliver Neuville -
humble yet hard worker forward. Calm & Cool figure upfront.. Never been selfish. You will remain in the hearts of all germans

Farewell Heroes! You've shown what a hero is really all about

after the final, 10 July 2006

Danke

a spirit never dies when hearts joined together
Though disappointment & sadness grasp at soul
You never stop fighting till d end
At the end, smile & laughter are all is seen
Joyful & gladness appeared
You have shown & gave the best you have..
No matter where where it ends
It'll stay in one's heart
We will never forget this moment
Thank you, for the hope you've showed us.. For hope is what makes us live
Thank you for not giving up!

danke!

dedicated to Team germany 2006
3rd winner of the 2006 World Cup

Oliver Khan, Jens Lehmann, Timo Hildebrand

Marcell Jansen, Arne Friedrich, Phillip Lahm, Christoph Metzelder, Per Mertsacker, Robert Huth, Jens Nowotny

David Odonkor, Thorsten Frings, Michael Ballack, Bernd Schneider, Tim Borowski, Sebastian Kehl, Bastian Sweinsteiger, Thomas Hitzlperger

Gerald Asamoah, Mike Hanke, Oliver Neuville, Lucas Podolski, Miroslav Klose

Oliver Bierhoff, Andreas Keopke, Joachim Leow, & most of all
JUERGEN KLINSMANN!

after the final, 10th July 2006

uncle

2 days ago i became an uncle of a boy named Vincentius Sebastian Lee Marciano...
hmmm... sounds an italian eh? hehehe..
and the only brother i have doesn't have a girlfriend yet!

Auf wiedersehn & welcome hope

Finally, the German lost their game to Italy at the semi…
A match with breath taking moments
The youngster had performed a new breed of a new German team…
They may be lost, but definitely there is a new hope…
One end is a new start
A start of hope…
So, welcome hope

FOOTBALL, again

its still football... WORLD CUP!
again and again..
wel , the german side has perform well to get the maximum points...
second round is againts sweden...
gonna be more interesting,
i hope...

WORLD CUP fever

its the Germany FIFA World Cup!
all 32 teams will battle to win the single cup..

its been a week now,
and so far i'v only watched the live action when its deutschland playing
the other.. wel, doesn't matter much..
i prefer to sleep and save my energy

the deutschland has gone through the knockout phase
with 4-2 win against Costa Rica and 1 - 0 against Poland
and so is the astonishing ecuador
and well, england..with their pride of the nation..

who will come next?

choice...

Every word must have its action...
speak of the rule...coz that is what rule is all about
sometimes rule doesn't talk about feeling, compassion and forgiveness
and that is why making a decision for people breaking the rules are hard..

over a week this problem had been around more than one head..
buzzing around on and off.. causing a huge mixture in the atmosphere
all the emotions erupt!
rage between parents, students and teachers...
love and hate...
right and wrong...
its all about choices...

i keep thinking about it everyday...
hope that the solution could be the best
and i learn something..
besides the truth, fact...
the desires and hope for the better...
love and care..
politic talks...
even the simplest truth can be turned...
what a world we live in...
what a school i'm in to...

but in the end i believe i was there for a purpose
to keep making the better even from the worse..
and again, its a choice...

distance

over a distance i looked...
dooh!!...
how long i didn't wrote my blog...
=D

long road

knowledge and action....
mind and will
sometimes it contradict itself...
exploding a battle in your self

a battle on a long road...
where will you be..
what will you be ..
a question on a never ending journey

walk

i walk in a line...
i watch the trees and feel the wind blowing soft..
smooth, lovely & beauty blend in a mixtures you cannot say..
leaves falling to the ground one by one as i keep my steps..
walking my road with a smile...

the road ahead seemms narrowed
slowly i get nearby..
i think for while, and i remembered what i just felt
and with no hesitation i walked on

the road is still the same
but somehow i'm shakin.. i tremble on my walk
i walked in doubt
where am i going?
where does this road leads me?
i stood there for a while
trying to feel the wind and the falling leaves again..
but there is none...
where am i?
why am i here?

i see the road.. it is still the same..
i see around.. it stood still, nothing changes
then why i feel so different? i cant move my lips to smile
i see the road again..
i wanna keep walking
but my feet seems so hard to make the steps

i wanna keep walking....
i wanna keep walking....
i know i have to keep walking
i wanna keep walking...

Selena, again...

today i found something about her...
it was just days after the doctors in singapore said that they give up on her, she went away for good..
coming back to the Father's house

after noticing what the doctors had told her, she finally can surrender he life to God and let go everything she had and make peace with it
and i believe, she walks home with a smile,
a happy face knowing that she already completed her part in this world...

and when it came to me,.. i ask my self
how far have i done my part in this world?

coin

Life is like a coin..
when a face heads up, the other face down...
its just like 2 of my students at school..

one is very happy these days..
falling in love and the star seemed shining bright on her
filling her life with smile and doin' funny things...
fantastic moments with good grade keeps showin' up
how could anything beat that?

the other, is very sad at the moment
she just break up ..
angry, lonely, desparete, lost, sad, disoriented as she said it her self
not even the bright sun can cheer her up
cloudy dayz as it passes by

ah, what a contrary life has brought up to people
a contrary, in which,.. we can always learn and surrender to the lord
coz we are nothing, build to be important in Him...
as we don't know the future nor His plan..
as we walk in His way..
then the sun will always shine again,
brighter than before...