X mas is here?

x mas has passed...
but where is it? i didn't realize that at all
i didn't realize its coming..

flying back home, again

tomorrow i'll be flying back home..

but this time i feel like i wasn't ready to go..

still lots of thing to do or my prep for coming home is not ready...

weird..i'm coming to my freedom but i don't feel happy

excited yeaa.. but not happy....

but i really want to go home...

its just weird..

so well, i'll be flying back home, again....

Who?

I was walking on water.... or feel like water, i guess
I see the distance, its a horizon filled with birds flying, clouds whispering
i smile seing the glorious wonder and i looked down..
there's an image of me
i keep smiling till i see that the image is not smiling...
i wonder why....
i looked closer, i even step and move my feet around on the water to make sure i am seeing the same image
it still didn't smile...
i take my time to think while the sun lower herself down to sleep
i see the image back and forth, no changes...
till it finally dissapear when the world turn over
"its not me!!" i shouted..
but why is it looked like me?

another time of the year

this is the end of 2005...
the last month.
i dunno where to put my heart...or where my heart is
its somewhere blur or on a crossover
hard to try to picture a beautiful end.
Hope floats everywhere for open hearted & opened eyes
but sometimes we just don't want to open it
coz when its closed you'll see nothing, feel nothing
maybe just a sense of quietness and peace
is it?

blebeQ..blebeQ

i'm drowning.....
i don't know where and why...BlebeQ blebeQ
i'm just drowning...
blebeQ...