Where it will lead life to

What would you do when you need to define your life?
How would you answer the question to the reasons of your current life?
What if you think you have the answer all along, but yet you're never sure about that answer?
That's why I needed to see you.
Although I don't really know what to ask or say, I just know I needed to see you to understand what or who shaped my heart


Now I understand that you still live inside it, and very much alive
How I wonder when will it last.. only to know that it may never disappear
Although I know that we have a different world and are set apart
but somehow the feeling never stops, though I wish not to hope anything out of it.
Words cannot describe my thoughts and feeling towards it..
Frankly speaking, it is one thing that kept me alive and moving on.. hm...moving on?
Well, according to your story, I might not be the only one who feel this way
but this is me... my life.. before, now and probably then...
no denial anymore, no refusal anymore..
But shall I pursue it or just live with it?
I don't know.. I wish I know.. really


my world is divided between logic and desire..
logically I do not wish for it but my heart is longing for it...
funny how it contradict itself
how can I live with such contradiction?
I do not know.
I do not deny it, I do not refuse it
am I okay? well I am
am I happy? most of the time, yes..
I'm not living in pain for sure...


Yes, this is about my life.. but it is all about you too
It's always been about you.
Do I ask anything from you?
I don't even know the answer to that
I'm just too busy thinkin' of my self...
and dreamin' about you...

CNY eve

today I enjoyed preaching the word..
we did a bible study from the story of the wedding in Cana
only 24 of us.. quite good though
afterward I had lunch with Yosua
bought some T-shirt and give them to uncle Jeff and the security guy at campus..
I feel so good about it..
it's always the spirit of sharing God's blessing...
although I'm not celebrating Chinese New Year...
after all.. I'm just a fake one
hehehehe...

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