after all

after all this time...
a time when i left to start a new journey to seek God and with God...
after 5 months of new life...

i think i found another new life...

after all..

thursday morning ...
the rain pour down heavily..
black clouds are hangin in the air
preventing the sun to shine...

the feeling i have this morning was the same as the weather...
tommorow i'll be gone...
i'm scared...
i'm so sad....

Jakarta Culinary Walk

The jakarta culinary walk....
The loong anticipated venue was delayed.. and for us, cancelled..
quite dissapointed, but nothing to be bothered laah..
another wonder..another unexpected thing...
but i realize it didn't stop me from ejoying life..
coz in front of me lies more options, waiting for me to grab
bandung culinary walk, or bible study with the LGers, or a family reunion at pulaw putri...
we'll see what will come up next...

Life Group = Living Group??

it is this week our Life Group turned into a Living Group
sunday we met @ Surya Utama
yesterday we met again to watch spiderman 3 @ TA
today we're gonna have a life group meeting @ robert's..
tomorrow we're gonna split up.. yola will have a meeting, i will lead a youth fellowhsip @ kedoya, and the rest of the gang will be having a bible study @ GKY Mangga besar.
afterwards we'll gonna round up for dinner somewhere (why is it always about food?) & probably spend the nite @ robert's..
saturday we'll also meet for the second day of bible study..
and the fact is.. i enjoyed it..

life group macam apa ini??
wekekekek....

monday nite Booo...link

played bowlink with sam n the uph'ers..
cathie, kalenk, nia, ariel, ucoks, san san, teteh, n jessica
we splitted into 2 lines, each lines with 5 bowlers..
ariel, kalenk and nia are good...
it'll make a great competitions.. next time that is hehe

its fun.. great nite, though i didn't win the game =)
hahaha.. its a wonderful experience...
ow yea.. forget to mention.. i slipped a few times hehe
slippery when not wet =D

before, the plan was to eat at konro karebosi..
sam n i missed the dinner coz the traffic was so high....
i didn't want to have dinner actually, so at first i think i didn't miss a thing
but as i said to a friend, i realize that i missed the atmosphere, the 'fourplay'


afterwards,..
we went to WGP to eat ropita
i was amazed with jessica's 'power' to eat. she didn't stop at all!!
huwaaa... she should join an eating contest..hehehe..
wel, the nite rise up and the moon was high..
a nite for yet another unexpected things...
another nite to wonder


i'm sniffing sumthin different..
what was on your mind cath?? haeaheahaha....
its like you're not concentrating on the bowling alley
and dont tell me its becoz you're hungry
i guess i sniff dat u sniff =D
thanks for askin us to join eniwei...

a week full of wonder

week 18

Monday
the feeling left from PYPL Kajadu still existed. the enthusiasm, the joy, and all tiredness comes together ... but most of all, i'm damn tired!
I didn't do anything in particular, just tryin' to rest my mind.. (and body as well)..
but the day was filled with happiness.
one of my friend was inaugurated as a pastor.
she is one of my partner in Life Group team, and she is a very damn good pastor...(one of my favorite pastors) hehehe.. wel I hope she will always be herself, not developed to be what her congregations wants.. to keep believing in her idealism and be blessings for people around her..
my best wishes for her in pursuing the will of God.. go for it Girl!

Tuesday
Life Group Meeting day.
Jeje was leading the meeting, and it went well.. we progress quite a bit and show improvement which we really needed.. as usual the meeting went till midnite ... benita joined in the team.. a good atmosphere we had. I hope the team and the materials will continue to develop from day to day, week to week, month to month and year to year. This is something really big what we're doin. I hope everybody realize it as well... all glory to you Lord

late at nite there was not many words..
just VIVA LIVERPOOL!!
a fantastic moment it was in a marvelous breath taking game, a high tension game which made me even hard to breathe and watch the game. but again, the lads perfectly beaten chelsea in a penalty kick drama which made them thru to the finals!! Awesomee dudee!!
Athens!! he're we come, we'll win it 6 times!!
YOU"LL NEVER WALK ALONE....

Wednesday
wel, not much.. just a milan game which they won superbly against manchester united
but it did make me smile that day... hehehehe.. no offense MU guys =D

Thursday
Alice's concert. the nite's theme was Simply Vivaldi.
This time she leads in a solo performance.. and its good (wel, i never know when there's a mistake or two.. so for me it was great hehe) great performance lizzie!
listening to this kind of concert just brings you to enjoy yourself..
especially when you hear and see a live performance harp.. wel, it bring old memory when i was still in bangkok and Ms. Jansen played the harp beautifully, though i didn't remember anything about the vibe..
it was an interesting nite.. i went with obet and we both enjoyed it. had a long chat at his apartment till midnite where i spend the nite.

Friday
i surveyed around Surya Utama for the 'amazing race' life group. I had everything i need and we'll be ready for the day. packed up and ready to go!

Saturday
the Jesus Dynasty seminar revealed the explanation needed...period.
met Yola with her new haircut... and some new gossips arise .. wel, its life man....just enjoy it eh.. =D
in the evening i lead gunsa teens fellowship. it took 3 hours but it was great, i believe the kids get something from the lord.. you're just great lord.. awesome dudee!!...
afterwards cathie, sam n i circle around and bumped ourselves to tamani cafe.. been a loooong time since the last time i ate there.. after dinner and some theory chat..hehe we went to ragusa.. the old fashined ice cream.. to bad it was about to close.. but we had the nite already, and its time to sleep.. zzz....

Sunday
Life Group Time!! and its amazing race episode!
can't say much.. but it was awesomee!! it went well and everybody was happy.. including the four of us.. obet, jeje, sam n me.. we learned a lot from it as well and i see sam was getting along very nicely here, and he enjoyed it very much.. good for you bro! and again.. glory to the man most high! after life group we went for sushi with yola.. the 5 of us...
had a good time and the next route was to yola's house.. we talked about 2 hours there
and we end the day with whatever we may think and feel..
but for me.. i'm definitely getting FATTER this week!
and you call that diet?? hauhauhaa....

but everything was a wonder.. its great and fulfilling..
just a simple thanks to you...

failure

turning point

for everything there had to be a turning point...
a time when you can resolve things...
a decision to turn your life into a brighter day or a darker night
well maybe you don't understand any of it for a while
but when you make that decision, you realize...
it was somethin had to be done...
sometimes it can sound foolish, or maybe even crazy
sometimes it can also sound wise and mature
how ever it sounds.. you make the decision

and sometimes it need to take you to a place you'd never expect
make you stumble, dizzle, confused, burdened, and distracted
just to take you back to realize
it was the turning point
to resolve..
to make peace again with nature and life
another chapter had been closed, another chapter awaits..

when ...

when there's a sudden change...
one must question what had happen? there might be 3 reasons..
a) a sudden busy life, b) a wind of change, or c) a mistake by ones man.
and in order to restore this madness, should this man bow down to his knees for forgivemess that he might not know? or just wait till things eventually came back to where it belong,..
what should a man do?
one may wonder....

behold..

STONeS

The wOrld will proVide you with sToneS everyday...
What you build out of it, itS your Choice.

Wall, Road or a Bridge...
you may even choose to build noThing

at the end,
the world will know you by what you did with it..

Freeky Freely Thinking

UPH lagee...
been a year since i that moment...
a great moment it was.. i still remembered everyone of them. Now we met in a tottaly different situation and in a different position as well. Many didn't know, i came not as a consultant or a profesional... but as a friend, and it put me in a better place to do what i can, to say what i should and to think freeky freely...
it took me in a whole lot better view to see everything actually... -the comittee and the participants as well- and to give inputs on everything.. but well, it turns out that it wasn't that easy

the event was great,.. the commitment from the comittee are astounding, they did everything they could.. they even barely sleep! the communications are a bit nasty though and the atmosphere was not so good, but they did it! and that's what count, wel, besides all the lesson they could learn

the participants.. well i guess they've stayed to loong in their comfort zone.. it made them a bit afraid to take risks and get out from it.. its so obvious though, with the environment they lived in and all other things surrounds them, What can i say? but fandy had it in one word.. "think deeper" ... cool words from the new senat chief!

I see the future of our generation sinking bit by bit...
if we don't rescue it, our genaration will fall down...
new perspective i learned, and definitely a new chance given by the almighty to take part in this world.. sounds like an old theme eh?
but hope is there, floating.. just had to work damn hard for it

in this place, for myself.. i learned about believing, surrendering, trust and being a leader itself.. and once again, i met our dear lord.. just in a glance, but enough to realize that He's always there....

on Counting...

april will be the moment..

tick..tock...tick... tock...

Future

'we don't care where you have been, we care where you are going'
No matter what happened in d past doesn't matter anymore.
What you plan & hope does matter..
dat's why, You r never alone

Turbulence

There are such turbulence in my brain circuit.. this thing i've had in my life for years. Such disturbance from time to time.. Over & over again, i've been troubled with these which can be soothing or annoying. Most of d times its annoying though.. No reasons, no answers. No explanation to this at all.. When will it stop? when will it end?
Only heaven knows..

reflect..

one of the sign about growth and maturity is the ability to reflect ones life to see the unseen
and to see beyond what is seen...

BAN...JRIIIT

jakarta banjrit seminggu belakangan ini..
lucu juga sih... separo separo
gue jadi bisa liat orang orang tuh seperti apa
yang kaya sampe yang miskin, kadang gak ada bedanya
semuanya bukan ditentuin soal duit...
jah... kelakuan sama aja, gak ada beda
pemerintah ma rakyat tuding tudingan..
emang cirinya bangsa kita ya gini ini

menarik liat semuanya on location
ikut bantu jadi relawan di posko kaput
naek truk, drop makanan n evakuasi yg mo ngungsi ke gading
sampe tengah malem, 2 hari berturut turut...
sambil doa banjirnya surut n kering
sementara langit item n mendung terus...
tapi pas lagi evakuasi sih puaanaas mpe kebakar kulit

seru, cape n yang pasti bisa bersyukur juga dapet pengalaman seperti ini
bisa liat orang orang juga.. ketemu anak anak di jalan
ketemu anak anak K5 yang ikut bantuin.. bangga ma mereka yang pasti
gak cuma ngabur n ngungsi atau ngeluh, tapi langsung turun bantuin
thats what i call leaders!

eastSIDEstory

the air smell so sweet...
there's a coffee shop, sometimes i like to buy a cup
there's a bus waiting every time to get aboard
wel, wouldn't it be a story?

its just another east side story
where everyone had a tail to tell
like hundreds people before me
there's something you hold on to, and something you let go
people say someone who really can't have is the one you really want most
think about it sometimes, whether its real or not
but whatever it is...
life goes on the same...
its just like an east side story

live and let die

when you live,.. i guess you don't die
but for some people, living is dying
when you saw dead people.. would you say its a life?
we'll never know how life and death separates us
just be thankful that we're alive...
live and let die

One Moment in Time

each day i live, i wanna be a day to give the best of me
i'm only one but not alone
my finest day is yet unknown...

i broke my heart for every gain
to taste the sweet, i face the pain
i rise and fall
this much remains

i want one moment in time
when i'm more than i thought i could be
when all of my dreams are far beat away
the answers are all up to me
give me one moment in time
when i'm racing with destiny
then in that one moment in time
i will feel eternity.. i will be free!

i lived to be the very best
i want it all, no time for less
i've laid a plan now lay the chance
here in my hands.......

i want one moment in time...

Anirah's Cross

Anirah is my grandma
she was a prefect grandma to all of us...
a kind and loving person, not to mention how humble she was...
i never saw her get mad or yelled at people....
even when grand pa yelled or scolded her....
not even ONCE!

She's already been gone for 5 years
but her memory lived inside all her sons and daugther, grand sons and grand daughter.. a remarkable grannie which you can't find anywhere in this world.
before she passed away, she requested her last wish,
and its to give all her grand sons and grand daughter a golden cross carved with her name and grandpa's name on it...

and a week ago at the tirta's family gathering... everyone of us received that golden cross..
just a simple and tiny cross but makes me how wonderful she was..
and we all give thanks to her...

i love you grandma, we all love you
even after you're gone.. or eventhough we didn't visit you much
but you know how much we all loved you..
you're the best grandma we eved had...
and your name will always be carved in our hearts

BIG Tirta's family gatHerinG!

29 - 31 DECEMBER 2006
Serenity Villa, Lembank

its the BIGvenue for tirta's family
after a lot of hope during the past years, we finnaly gathered again at villa serenity, lembank
everyone gather round except b-benk, oci, ecu and the usual one.. the one and only ngkim nela..
sasa and kenneth was brought on the first day, just not enough to blend in but at least they showed up...

being one as a family is something you just don't find everyday lately..
it makes us remember all the good ol' days when we can still shared the POC excitment, one of the most remarkable venue in tirta's family tree

Time flies by and things changed .. from year to year, decade to decade
new familes created, new babies born and new members coming
but the family never changed.. tons of laughter gloomed in every corner of the place
everytime we gather, there's big sounds of happiness, yet sentimental and emotional
people counting more family members to come
its just wonderful to be in such condition

now we have the updated and most complete database, lots of new planning for the future ahead such calendar, t shirt, next gathering schedule, training programs and lots of excitement, spirit and dreams to come

follow ups coming up.. hope floats for a better big family