walk

i walk in a line...
i watch the trees and feel the wind blowing soft..
smooth, lovely & beauty blend in a mixtures you cannot say..
leaves falling to the ground one by one as i keep my steps..
walking my road with a smile...

the road ahead seemms narrowed
slowly i get nearby..
i think for while, and i remembered what i just felt
and with no hesitation i walked on

the road is still the same
but somehow i'm shakin.. i tremble on my walk
i walked in doubt
where am i going?
where does this road leads me?
i stood there for a while
trying to feel the wind and the falling leaves again..
but there is none...
where am i?
why am i here?

i see the road.. it is still the same..
i see around.. it stood still, nothing changes
then why i feel so different? i cant move my lips to smile
i see the road again..
i wanna keep walking
but my feet seems so hard to make the steps

i wanna keep walking....
i wanna keep walking....
i know i have to keep walking
i wanna keep walking...

Selena, again...

today i found something about her...
it was just days after the doctors in singapore said that they give up on her, she went away for good..
coming back to the Father's house

after noticing what the doctors had told her, she finally can surrender he life to God and let go everything she had and make peace with it
and i believe, she walks home with a smile,
a happy face knowing that she already completed her part in this world...

and when it came to me,.. i ask my self
how far have i done my part in this world?

coin

Life is like a coin..
when a face heads up, the other face down...
its just like 2 of my students at school..

one is very happy these days..
falling in love and the star seemed shining bright on her
filling her life with smile and doin' funny things...
fantastic moments with good grade keeps showin' up
how could anything beat that?

the other, is very sad at the moment
she just break up ..
angry, lonely, desparete, lost, sad, disoriented as she said it her self
not even the bright sun can cheer her up
cloudy dayz as it passes by

ah, what a contrary life has brought up to people
a contrary, in which,.. we can always learn and surrender to the lord
coz we are nothing, build to be important in Him...
as we don't know the future nor His plan..
as we walk in His way..
then the sun will always shine again,
brighter than before...

Amazing Love

Amazing Love, how could it be
That you my king would die for me
Amazing Love, I know its true
Its my joy to honour You
In all i do...

Selena

I don’t know this girl..
I just know that she’s still young, aged 30 something and had a cancer
All the people at IES had been praying for her for over a month,...

No doctors in Indonesia are willing to take care of her..
So she went to singapore last week.
And the result are the same, all the doctors gave up since the cancer had spread all over her body..
She went back to Indonesia on Tuesday, and we prayed for her again on Good Friday at the service.
The church opens a list for anyone who would sign up to pray for her.
I didn’t sign but i’ve prayed for her twice last week at home.
On Saturday, she passed away...
So quick..
how would she felt when the doctors said that there is no hope for her?

Hope, is something that makes us live...
For how can we live without hope?
His resurections gives us hope,..
To live in this world with faith,
To live with righteousness...
for He had died for our sin..

shortcut

i like shortcuts
it makes everything faster than it has to be..
it simples thing, saves time and energy as well
life is easier that way ey?
but the result of it more often like the way it is..
just like me...