I trust in you...

I trust in you...
A word with so much meaning...
But to me.. It's a word that I have been taught for the past 2 months, especially when I was in Manila for the Taize meeting. A dear friend of mine, Natalie keep saying to me "hey, this is a time of trust".
Probably she was joking (or serious, I'm not really sure :D) cause we were just making fun to each other.. But i guess she's right. The pilgrimage of trust is something I'm in and it's not just a slogan.. It's real. 


I've been living an unexpected life this year, and for what purpose? For me to enjoy and be happy? I guess it might.. But the true answer is actually something that I discovered today when i was in the plane. 
It is for me to learn to trust God just as the psalmist said, "I trust in You"...

My current life maybe hanging in the balance.. My future after I graduate, my relationships.. Everything is still unclear at the moment.. I guess it's just a way for God to teach me not to worry and say "I trust in you"...

I whispered these very words to a friend before I left Manila.. And now I whisper the same words to you in delight and gladness....


"All my times are in your hand, all events at your command"
                                                                       Rynald

another SMALL unexpected things...

C'mon.. be real.. this is LIFE...
what else can it gives us besides unexpected things? after all.. I'm in Singapore..
a country with less unexpected things.. hehe.. no offence...

but the title is still about the unexpected things at different level..
it can be BIG with different occasions like before..
but it can also be SMALL like this week....
somehow I find its hard to make certain decision this week..
so many things to think about, made me tired, especially when it's endless...
even a small thing can become HUGE, well, its on how view this small or huge anyway..
but again, today he saves my ass again.. my hero, as always..
whenever I'm in trouble, he always come to my rescue..
as my friend says "yet again God saves my ass"
and indeed he does, everytime...

expect the unexpected

I don't know what is going on this year!!
there has been many unexpected things in my life in just 2 months time...
even from the early days of the new year..
it's either me becoming so random or it is just life..
I'm not sure... but so far I enjoyed it... it brings spirit into my life back..
and I wouldn't be surprised either if more unexpected thing happens to me in the future..
so just expect the unexpected..

you are never alone

Our place is within community...
We reshape community, we strengthen hearts and refresh minds
But this only can happen through God's initiative and love to have communion with us. God himself came to us and bond us with his love, and by his grace unite his people in one accord through prayers, melodies, and sharing.

Taize is not just about friendship or prayer, its about community.. 
We might not know everyone in the community, but we certainly are not alone, and it feels good knowing that we're not alone in this journey, in this pilgrimage of life.. Whether we're Looking for purpose and meaning in life, or seeking God the almighty.. Whether we're lost, discouraged, frustrated, lonely or even when we can't focus in prayer, we're not alone. on the contrary, when we're happy and in joy we too know that we are never alone..

I believed that many people after the meeting realized that our world is getting bigger yet smaller at the same time. Bigger, having met and known new people in our lives and smaller for we now know that wherever we go we now have friends in those countries. knowing this gives us comfort, encouragement and even blessings...yes, we are not alone anymore..

Such community is the community of God. A community  where people encourage each other, support, pray and share, just in acts 2:41-47. Isn't such a relief knowing that In this more and more individualistic world, we're not alone..

Off course not everyone realize this, as we might not always realize how the Holy Spirit works in us as well... We only know that we are continuing this pilgrimage.. The Spirit is not over although the meeting is over, for the Spirit is in us, workin in us and through us. Realizing this certainly will give something different in our life. It gives us meaning. A meaning of our life in this world, meaning of what we are doing, and meaning of what God has done in our life. Having meaning in life gives us power, energy, excitement, optimism, and purpose to walk one step further in our life with God in doing his will, to share his love and peace in every possible ways... yet, such a great power knowing that we're doing this with others for we are not alone...

at the end of the day

I had a great day today, and swimming just add my day ..
I'm happy.. as I always normally..
and at the end of the day I can only say..
thank you...

never say goodbye

what Taize taught my faith was: there will never be goodbyes, it's just a temporary farewell..
for we will always meet again... someday, somehow...

FIVE days, FIFTY different countries, FIVE thousand young people, ONE trust

as my friend nicely puts it..
"FIVE days, FIFTY different countries, FIVE thousand young (and not so young =P) people, ONE trust"...
it was what we experienced in Makati, Manila, Philippines last week...
Maybe I went too far (I'm not so sure about that either, but I was totally random -_-) but I can recall the Taize spirit bringing us into a ONE big family,... a family of Christ.

being there in the community reminds me of what I've experienced in Taize last year, and it was great. The Philippinos were really hospitable, friendly and kind, including our foster brother James and the LaSalle students..The atmosphere was amazing, peaceful and filled with joy as new friendship starts to flourish.
I met old friends from Taize. Jeff, Hyo Seok, Natalie, Janice, Amanda, Smiling, Chang Jun, Agnes, Mickey and many more, not to mention knowing more ex permanents there..
another unforgettable experience, truly a community, close and knit together by the love of Christ.

As the prayers are sung, melodies dance into each heart and bring peace to the soul.
"The Lord is my shepherd, he refreshes me to the fullest" - "Ang Panginoon ang aking pastol, pinagiginahawa akong lubos".. reminds us to whom we put our trust to, and therefore to trust others...
to share life and love in peace... as what the Lord has given us through his simplicity to renew our faith and trust. "Bless the Lord my soul, who leads me into life"...

The air was warm and dry, but the melodies bring peace and love...
another hope for mankind, a new hope for a united world in peace...

wish...

I wish I could hold you in my arms again like it was before...
being together without words to speak.. only silence in the night...
holding hands and look into each other's eyes and smile...
witnessing beauty from above, as songs were sung in the air...
enjoying moments as there will be no tomorrow...
no words ...
just silence...
and a small miracle...


I wish there could be another small miracle...
if only I can wish such a thing...

relationships...

we can walk together without knowing each other...
we can hug or hold each other hands without knowing what is in our hearts...
we may have a total stranger besides us everyday without us knowing that...
what kind of relationship are we having now?

this year, only one month and two weeks gone, but there had been relationship crisis around my life..
in fact, these are my good and close friends...
I just can"t believe its happening at the same time around...
I can only pray for you friends and loved ones..
hoping the best still works in you..
and your heart can see the pure side of love...

just as seasons change, relationships bloom and fall...
hearts broken and torn down, leaving marks and holes as love grows and flourish..
at a time, we experience the downfall, and at the other time, hope floats as love starts to grow..
facts of life .. it is the wonders of life...

pray...

prayer DO make a difference...
thanks for the peace ...

Choices In Life

Any change, any loss, dos not make us victims.
Others can shake you, surprise you or disappoint you.
But they can't prevent you from moving on.

No matter where you are in life, no matter what your situation,
you can always do something.

On every turn of life, you will always have a choice.
And that choice can be your power.

so far away

you're so far away...
you'd never say goodbye
and I keep on asking why...

....

I'm not happy right now...
I can't even remember what had happened ...
everything just went so fast..
can't hardly think...
jheezz...