something better

When something happens to you - Good or Bad;
Consider what it means....
There's a purpose to life's events.
to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.
When you feel down because you didn't get what you want,
just sit tight and be happy.
God has thought of something better to give you

Irony

Finally, my grades are out...
had to wait several days since there was something wrong with the computing system...
and what an irony..
last semester was my laziest semester.
I didn't care much for my studies nor assignments..
not even for the deadline due date..

but yet, my grades last semester was the best compared to the previous semesters..
I should be very happy, shouldn't I? well yes off course I do
but ironically I feel that I don't deserve it at all..

I'm thinking of my friends who tried their best, study day and night, struggling to understand whatever they read.. ironic isn't?
Yes, grades is definitely not everything and I believe they have achieved something better than me actually...
Yes I also do have learned from last semester's course..

Then I began to questioned the system..
How grades can be something that people only seek...
I can reach the maximum score yet knowing nothing ...
Ironic

I never believe in grades...
for I have witness what it have shown...
Ironic..

a leap of time...

Two days ago I felt like it was yesterday

yesterday I felt like it was today

today I feel like it is tomorrow

A leap of time in my head?

weird.. weird weekend..

ready?

it's almost time to prepare for another travel...
a heart that set out to be free....
a new adventure awaits in a few weeks..
a new world about to explore...

pack my gear and ready to go...
but why my heart isn't?

well, I'm sure I will be ready in no time

kite

fly fly fly..

fly to where the wind blows...

it was fun to try to make it fly..

but damn hard when there's no wind at all...

beer

I need a can of beer to help me sleep these days...

"the" secret

finally, the secret is out in the open, at least in the family....
for all these years I've tried to hide it.. and indeed it was well hidden...
but now its out in the open...

i guess when I see the bigger picture, sometimes things do look different.
knowing that other people know and letting your defences down does not neccessarily mean that you're weak and vulnerable...
sure it will trouble my ego, but I guess opening "the" secret helps to save my heart from rotting and in fact set it free...and for the better of it, maybe it's worth for every part of it...
letting my fear out means there are some risks that I have to take..
conflict, judgement, pain and other nonsense I might suffer from this...
but at least I know that I'm not all alone....
and I know that I'm working for the better of it..

a lot like love

today we discussed psalm 103 in class.
the main point focused on God's love and compassion...
as the discussion moves further we stumble on the condition of his love. he knows us inside out, remembering of who we are, which are made of mud, worthless...
we are like wild flowers that spring and blossom, but snuffs out quickly by a storm...
we are nothing, but his love for us remains forever

can people love out of nothingness?
well, we have the good side and the bad..
while it's easy to love the good side, most people would love less when they discovered the bad ...
it can easily snuffs the love we have ...
it can be the nothingness...

as much as I have that kinda love itself, I've learned things I never discovered before.
real love is hard and tough, and I have always struggle with it..
but it does not ease out easily like the storm snuffs the blossom wild flowers...
no matter how bad things are...

I'm no expert in love.. I'm just someone being caught in the middle of it..
will my love remain forever? I don't know.. I only know one thing...

half my life I've learned that love and I still am..
half my life I've loved you and I still do...

purpose

i found this worth posting... for sure..
live for a purpose..

half

I just wrote half than what I've wrote last year in one day.. 'what happened to me last year anyway?

scars

I look at the scars on Bruce Wayne's back on the right picture...

and I look on my scars..

did I just heal an old one?
or did I just add a new one?

traffic light...

my friend asked me about the traffic light..

is it red, yellow, or green?

I said I don't know, the light is off... it must've been broken

So I went to check the traffic light

it's still off.. still not showing any colour...

and it's becoz I didn't even try to fix it

for I know it doesn't do any good trying to fix it now...

random?

me, being random.. yeah, that's so not me,..

but I did it.. and it was good, or at least i felt good about it..

I know what I want this time and nothing can stop it...not even my own mind..

I just don't know how to get it, unfortunately..

but this being random thingy was quite interesting

had new experiences, though I totally lost control of certain things..

but the main point was there.. achieved, yet still not secured...

i just hide it between the words..