the book

I know the road is still long and nothing is certain at this point..
but should I close the book of what use to be an exciting and adventurous part of life, a book that has coloured my life for all this time?
I know I am thinking about that possibility...
and somehow I am doing that, unconsciously...
What used to be a huge flare has dimmed a lot..the fire has gone...
and I know I am changing ...
This process is really tiring me up..
but I do believe it is for the better ...
so help me God to adjust to all these changes..
Whether I should close this book or keep it open, I surrender it to you, so when the time comes, I know what decision I have to make...